not feeling good

Hi @BlueBay

34 years married is a long time - I wish it was going better for you

I don't think it's right that you are supposed to lift 15 kilograms - my old suitcase was weighed every trip and it was between 10 and 12 kg and I would never have wanted to lift that much often ever - I never did that kind of work but I can imagine that it's too much esp with back problems and they can't just sack you because you can't lift that weight

It's causing you so much pain I think you need an MRI on your back and that means seeing a specialist - have you ever had your spine investigated - it seems that it''s moderate to severe pain though I can't possibly tell but it is causing you a lot of discomfort and now disability

I'm glad you are seeing your doctor tomorrow and there is no need to worry about your job - men should be lifting that kind of weight - but regardless - it sounds like a health and safety issue

I hope your doctor can help you out tomorrow - to me it does seem really important

Dec

Thanks @Owlunar @Shaz51

I can't believe it's 34 years.
havent had an MRI on my back.
I do see a chiro but I will see ehst my doctor says

am I better off seeing a physio.
I don't know.
my hip is playing up agsin.
I feel really down at the moment

feel like everything I do something goes wrong

Happy Anniversary @BlueBay .... ❤️❤️❤️

I hope your dr can help sort your back out quickly.

Thanks everyone for support snd best wishes.
@Faith-and-Hope @Owlunar @Shaz51 @Maggie @MDT @Zoe7 @Former-Member and others

I saw my doctor this morning and he's ordered an X-ray of bsvk and hip.
I told him about my psin and he says I need to still go to work as it's good mentally. I told him but I'm in pain after every shift and that's not good for my mental health.
he th Ed n told me that my cholesterol is high. He said I need to really watch what I eat and lose weight.

I then had a phone session with my dietitian. We talked about my triggers for excess eating. He is trying to make me see that this is why I'm eating excessively. He asked sbout wirk and I told him about my the issues. He seems to think that anything over 5kg you need two people to lift a box.
tomorrow I have a busy day.
hair appt colour sbd cut

nerve test

phone session with physiotherapist

hip and back X-ray

then in between I need to walk

Hey @MDT

today I've been feeling really emotional thinking I'll never get better and I'll never lose my weight and then what do I do with my job. Do I leave, stay and put up with my psin where I need to go to bed for hours just to feel slightly better.
I feel like sll this is huge and I can't cope.

FFS my anger is extremely high right now

I want to break things

I want to scream

why is everything my fault

I talk, he doesn't listen or replies

I say something and it's back on me

it's my fault

I've been thinking I should leave my job

I just can't do it anymore

I'm not good for any job

I'm useless

@MDT @Faith-and-Hope @Owlunar @Shaz51 @Owlunar Others

Hi everyone @Faith-and-Hope @MDT @Owlunar @Shaz51 @Maggie @Zoe7 @Molliex @Angels333 and others reading

I had my nerve test done on my hands. My right hand is severe for carpal tunnel. My left hand is moderate. I need surgery.

I don't know what to do at work. So much negative thoughts going through my head.

im seeing my doctor on Thursday so will talk with him.

Just waiting to have hip and back X-ray.

I'll be back later.