not feeling good

sitting with you my sister @BlueBay

Hi @BlueBay

I can answer your previous comments later

First - what happened at Group Therapy? It sounds as if it ws tough - I hear that

Waiting to hear from you about it

Dec

@BlueBay 💙💙

Talked about emotions today and sitting with it. I struggled so much I ended up crying because I had a few emotions at once.
Then there was this lady who knew it all. Everytime the psychologist said something she would pipe up. It was so annoying. Then we talked s our goal setting. I told the psychologist I struggle with goal settings with my eating disorder. She says to me "well I'm into fitness and can't you just have one biscuit" I said it's not that easy. Who the f..k is she telling me. Does she know how hard it is.
At this point the psych explained to her it's exactly like alcohol addiction.
she later on days to me "oh I don't like the words good or bad" after hearing me say that in conversation to the psychologist.
omg I was so angry with her. After that each time she opened her mouth I doodled on my paper.

I was so upset. I was crying in the car. Had to sit there fir about 15 mins.

ive emailed my dietitian because he knows how hard it's for me.
fir this lady to say this has made me feel like people are judging me. And I don't like her.
Just because she's a skinny person. Parades around like she's someone if high importance.
@Maggie @Owlunar @Shaz51 @Former-Member @Angels333 and others reading

Hi @BlueBay

I hear you - I have met people like that in groups and actually they are a pain - they are self- actuating - using the group to - well - take over - and for what reason that makes them feel better about themselves

But here's the thing - you know how hard it is for you and there is not way you can tell her that because she's not likely to hear you - and anyway - does she matter?

You say that you feel as if you are being judged by people a lot - that's not your business actually - people will think something regardless - and that's okay - my first suggestion is to say don't worry about it

But you do and I know that - what can you do? You are there to share in the group and it's unfortunate that you have someone there who always has something to say - and it will grate

One thing is to learn to speak up - and I have sat in groups and doodled and stared out of the window and switched off too - but I didn't get much out of groups doing that

So - what did I learn? It's so long ago now but I did learn not to take what other people said to heart - that is the first thing I can think of - I did learn in time to speak over other people - which might or might now work

So - here you are given time to have your say and no one is judging you - in life - few people actually do I am sure and those that do are not worth the worry - mostly people are busy worrying about guess what? They are bothered by what other people are saying - and not just you

People in groups are vulnerable - I know this - and let me think about it for a while - because you are important to me and valuable and I know you find this hard. But really - there is no need to worry about that woman - you did right to check in with your dietician - I don't know much about eating disorders - my suggestion would be not to keep food like that in your house but I know your kids want it

So I hear - it's not easy - and at times for anyone - one is not enough

You''ll be okay

Dec

That sounds like such a tough session @BlueBay

It's good to hear your dietician is a good source of support. Like others, sitting with you while you ride those waves

FFS I wish hubby would just the f..k up.
I have to call companies to organise hrlp with our bills.

I csnt desl with everyone

I have no time to me

where's my time

@Owlunar @Jupiter @Maggie @Shaz51 @Former-Member

I'm going to speak to the therapist and let him know I was upset. My dietitian replied and said ignore this lady. He said a lot of people don't understand eating disorders.

I suggest you ignore this person @BlueBay - after all - what can you do about her or other people like her?

As for Huffnpuff - you know he suffers from learned helplessness - this is something you need to discuss when you share therapy sessions with him - yes - I know he doesn't want to go - what a pest that has to be -

You could refuse to do housework when he refuses to take care of extra financial burdens - after all - you are working too and you are doing your share because you do most of the house work - and that is hard work - he said that himself

It's rough BlueBay - you do feel undervalued so much - and he could help - so he does need to learn and you need to tell him this

Yes - I know - I've been there and I'm so happily divorced - that's a choice I guess

But I do care

Dec

My results from MRI - all good.
My blood pressure was quite high again this morning 188/100. he's ordered blood tests for rheumatoid arthritis cholesterol and other things.
he is a very thorough doctor.
Having nerve function test next Tuesday.
@Owlunar @Jupiter @Shaz51 @Maggie @Former-Member

I feel a bit emotional tonight. I am exhausted. I don't want to go to eirk tomorrow. I just want to stsy in bed. I want to run away. My negative mind is saying to me yo just go.
I want to see my GP tomorrow.
im not thinking

So this is what I'm thinking -

stop my meds

don't go to wirk

punish myself even more

wanted to hide in the corner of my doctors room tiday

I wanted to cry and cry and cry

Whst us wrong with me

why am I even having these thoughts

@Shaz51 @Jupiter @Maggie @Owlunar @Former-Member