not feeling good

@Owlunar @Molliex @Maggie @MDT @Angels333 @Former-Member
I'm home. I went to wirk and after 2 hours I got sharp pains under my chest and felt it going to my neck.
tokd boss I wasn't well and she said just go home. Don't worry about eirk.
I cslled into my doctor just down the road from wirk. He did an ECG abd blood pressure - all ok.
ge thinks it could be gastritis.

I feel so useless at the moment. Feel like everything is going wrong and I'm not coping.

I have tomorrow off then bakery Friday 7-1pm. Hopefully I'll be ok.

I feel so bad not contributing enough to our finances. Thank god for MIL inheritance as we are using that as well.

I'm emotional. I had a good cry with the nurse at the doctor. She is so nice.

is it anxiety? I'm not anxious when I go to eirk.
I don't know anymore

Hi @BlueBay

I'm glad you are able to go to work today and also that you have a plan if you find you are not well - that's good foresight

I am glad your psyche is holding off medication about the flash-backs - I am sure you don't really want to add anything to the regime you are already having and I wonder myself what good anything could do - I had nightmares for years after my son died - scary ones - and my psychiatrist at the time suggested I write the end of the nightmare because I already knew it - and in time I would know it was a nightmare and I learned to wake myself up

The thing about flash-backs and nightmares about real events in our lives is that we really did experience the trauma and nothing can make it go away - all we can do is to work out how to live with it - find out a way to put it in the past - not to forget about it but to give what happened it's rightful place in our memories and breathe our way past it. It's not easy but acceptance is all we can do about the past because we can't change anything

That's what I did. And that's a long time ago now - those nightmares don't seem to bother me now - it takes a lot of hard work but thinking about it - the best things we have in life do take hard work and it is worth it

I'm glad you are having an MRI - it's noisy yes - I had mine on Tuesday and I get the results today - and I had to pay for it but that's okay - I don't mind - I will be glad to see my GP today.

It's best to get these things checked out but I think that it's pretty likely your high BP is caused by stress - I have been there myself when my stress levels were so high that I had migraine headaches a lot. I don't always think about that dark time in my life when everything was totally out of control but things did change and I am better now - and having such trauma in my past has added to my improved life now - not that I would ever want to live through that again - but I survived

Catch up later

Dec

Urgh @BlueBay I understand questioning the anxiety as you don't get it at work. I suppose work can be a sort of break for you then I know it's physically draining but mentally it's good for you. I have the opposite problem I have social anxiety and I have so much anxiety walking into work, it's debilitating. I'm not working atm due to the restrictions on swimming pools and honestly I am having so much relief. I don't know if I ever want to go back.... but I don't think I have a choice.

Any way, I hope your gastritis settles.

Much love Angels333

I'm feeling lightheaded and tired

feel like I don't care about anything

I feel weak

@BlueBay 💙💙

Hey @BlueBay

How are you doing, are you getting some support? Let me know if you need anything, I can always flick you an email. Here with you

Hi @Jynx

no support at home 😢

@BlueBay that sounds really hard, it is a really difficult time for isolation. I hope you are able to get some support that will help - be it here on the forums or through a helpline/online chat, whatever works best for you. Sending you hope and resilience x

Dear @BlueBay

You sound really unwell, run down and really fed up with it all. Its not easy being unwell for a long period of time.

Well done for getting to work, but equally well done to recognise that you were really not up to it and went home. I'm glad your boss is understanding, it must make things easier.

Good to hear that ECG and blood pressure tested okay. Reassuring I guess to some extent. Gastritis? I dont know much about that, other than it sounds like its inflamation of the gastrointestinal system.

Glad to hear you have Thursday off. Please .. if you still feel so unwell ... call in sick on Friday. I know you have a very strong work ethic and want to go, but please dont if you are still feeling this bad. Your health is just not worth it. I know you feel you arent contributing .. but really, you are.

I dont know what is wrong BlueBay ... I wish I did. I just hope that your medical team can get your BP under control firstly, and then check out any other issues.

I am sitting with you, to keep you company and to remind you that you are important and you are valued by so many. I'm happy that @Jynx was around this afternoon to keep an eye on you. Please take care Blue.

Sherry 🌺🤗💕

ohhh hugs my sister @BlueBay

sooo glad @Jynx , @Former-Member have been here for you this afternoon xxxxx

Mr shaz has to have a ECG too soon

I have a hiatus hernia and GORD my sister , relly hope you feel better soon , sitting with you xxxx