not feeling good

😘💕💜 @BlueBay .....

Hearing you.

Hey @BlueBay I am thinking about you while you're going through this MH journey.

Know that you're not alone.

I am praying that it works out that you can continue to see your new psychiatrist when you discharge xxx

You've been battling on for such a long time @BlueBay

And generally we have a rough time in hospital - which is why we go there - to be cared for when we have to sort out medical or mental illness reasons - so I understand that

And I think it's great that you are going to stay there as long as necessary - you need to both take it easy and when you are ready you can do the work on yourself

And nightmares happen - I think they are an indication of your inner work that needs attention but they are also very hard to work out - they are back-to-front, upside-down and inside out - and they can be so scary

Just give yourself time - don't push things - you have been needing to be taken care of for a long time -

Dec

ohhh hugs my sister @BlueBay

Thanks @Shaz51 for the hugs xxx

yeah I'm not rushing this time. I'm seeing this psych tomorrow morning and I want to bring up eith him agsin about seeing him at his rooms.
@Owlunar @Angels333 @MDT @Faith-and-Hope @Zoe7 @Molliex

and others

I feel really stupid tonight. The nurse decided to gather up some patients who wanted to play trivia. Out of 30 questions I only knew one. I know nothing about history sports planets etc etc.

I felt so dumb because all of them (different ages) knew they answers. I'm thinking to myself "how does this lady know so many answers)

I left feeling very flat

don't think I'll join in agsin.
watching tennis now. Can't wait for tomo night game. Nadal vs Kyrios

I really hope my psych gives me permission to go alone outside. I need to do my alone walk.
I hope I can skeep well tonight with no nightmares.
take care xxxooo

Hi @BlueBay

I used to play Trivial Pursuit with my then-h and we played it a lot - I knew a lot of the answers because we played the game so much - I know there have been a couple of new editions of the game since then and I would probably know a lot less

The way to learn is to play the game but that's not important - we know what we are interested in and I really know the minimum possible about spectator sports - and it's not a problem. You're not stupid so there's no need to worry about it - you are okay

I hope the long weekend is okay for you - and that next week you can gather unto yourself some peace - we all need that - and I hope you slept without nightmares last night - I know I did - I seemed to be having a really good dream when I was disturbed and it was late. The night before I was disturbed by a possum running about and maybe getting trapped somewhere - I didn't hear it last night

All the best

Dec

Not having a good night

thoughts are dark

anxiety high

too many what if's

sick of everyone saying stay positive

not easy when my head/thoughts are negative

what will I do when I go home

I don't have a job

I'm crying

spoke to nurse but it's hard

is there any point in continuing ??

i really don't know