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not feeling good

not feeling good

At the moment i am not feeling good. i feel like my body is in 'run away mode'. i feel my body is running on a high, my head is so mixed up. i have to go to bed and try to sleep, but don't know if i can.

my hormones are everywhere at the moment; my mood is sky high negative. i can't deal with this anymre. all of a sudden i am not feeling good. i think it is anxiety.

i don't know why i feel like this; i just want to cry but can't becsue everyone is home. i am going to bed. i don't know what is going on. actually maybe it is anxiety because i felt like passing out today.

I went to my GP to have my mirena IUD taken out as I had had enough. But he couldn't find the string, so he sent me for a ultrasound. Had that and the guy said i had two fibroids and a cyst on my ovary. but he couldn't find the string either, so had to have an xray to find the metal piece. they didn't tell me anything. but while waiting i was so anxious i almost passed out.

so now i have to wait for tomorrow when my GP will call me at work and let me know what will happen now. hopefully he can take the mirena out. i don't know.

my body is reacting to my anxiety - i feel so shaky, i need to stop. no point telling anyone at home becasue (a) they won't believe me and (b) they prob wouldn't care.

sorry, i had to tell someone. i feel so alone 😞

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@BlueBay

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Thankyou @Former-Member @Shaz51

I don't feel like I'm part of the forum anymore 😢😢

my last day of work this Friday and I'm very very emotional.
Having self harming and worse thoughts of other stuff

my mind is dark and negative and very stuck

I love you both so much I'm crying

I don't even know why I'm leaving

it's just so sad 😢😢

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Im sad too @BlueBay ... for you, but also for me. I'm not doing so well either, having been offline for close to a week. But I do know you are an important part of the forums ... If you want to be. And if its helpful to you. But only if you can tick those two boxes. Only you can decide that. But any decision you make, does not have to be permanent.

Please take care Blue.

Sherry

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@BlueBay @Former-Member @Shaz51 @Gazza75 @Zoe7

I am really sorry BlueBay - people love you here and give their best and if you still feel as if you are not part of the forum this is a hard thing to read

It seems we can't fill that terribly empty space inside you - I don't think anyone imagines that we can - and I respect your decision to leave - I wonder what else I could possibly say to you except that you are a big part of my life and I will miss you and I am sure other people feel the same way

But I respect your decision although I can't understand it - I know you have abandonment issues and I am sure this will have a severe impact on you - giving up your time in the forum right now when you are finishing up with your job - losing two parts of your life that are important to you in different ways

At least here you can return any time you choose to and you will be welcome

I probably haven't said that well - I feel really empty inside - you have expressed sorrow and let us know your dark thoughts - and we don't have to understand to care about you - and I am sure there are people who understand more than I do

So - my love and best wishes

Dec

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Sending my love too @BlueBay .

I know all the issues you face, I know hard doesn’t even come close to the struggle you wrestle with. I know, because I wrestle daily with them too. I don’t t know what else to say, other than you are respected and deeply loved here.

Whatever you decide, we all stand with you, even when it hurts. 💙💙💙💙

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come back soon my darling sister @BlueBay

here for you everyday , keeping taking your meds for me xxx

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@BlueBay sitting at the beach with you my darling

with @Former-Member and holly xoxox

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@Maggie @Shaz51 @Owlunar @Former-Member @Gazza75

I failed didn't I?

Didn't stay away long did I ??

the truth is I need you all right now

been crying a lot lately

not looking forward to tomorrow

saw my psych and broke down. First time he has seen me this bad.
he is going to put me into hospital on 1st feb. he rang the hospital while I was there.
he understands the fears I have and the grief from losing MIL to my job

i need to stsy in touch eith the CAT team

seeing my psychologist next Tuesday

exercise physiologist on Wednesday

dietitian on Friday

I don't want to go to wirk tomorrow

saying goodbye is difficult snd very emotional

I'm seeing my dictir after leaving work

@Owlunar You're right I csnt stsy awsy while going through all this

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You are so special to me sis @Shaz51 ❤️
I'm sorry to you all

I really am sorry xxxx

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It’s still Thursday @BlueBay i can give you a thumbs up. 👍👍👍👍👍👍

So good to read. 💜💜💜💜💙💙💙

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