not feeling good

I know the last few days have been particularly trying for you @BlueBay. You really matter to everyone here so please take good care of yourself.

I know you know these numbers, but please do reach out to them if you need:

Suicide Call Back Service: 1300 659 467

Lifeline: 13 11 14

Samaritans: 13 52 47

Here if you want to talk about it @BlueBay 💜

I'm going away

Im no use on here

You can't know how much good you do in the world @BlueBay

We all have an affect on other people in many ways we cannot see

Please call on of the crisis lines and talk to them

Have you seen your doctor yet?

Dec

Hang in there @BlueBay. I'm going to send you an email.

Hi @Jupiter @Owlunar @Former-Member @Gazza75 @Shaz51 and others

I saw my gp and one look at me he knew I wasn't good. I didn't want to be there. I wanted to leave. But he kept me there fir a while. He said he truly feels sorry for me and the way I'm feeling atm. He stressed I need to take my meds. He could see my anxiety rising my emotions in overdrive. He truly cares like all of you do.
I am so appreciative of all your support and care.
my dictir was concerned I wasn't thinking straight and I could be a danger at hime. I told him I was just coping. He wants me to call him in the morning.
my emotions are everywhere. My anger and there is a lot still locked away that is coming out.
when I got home I was still a mess and rang lifeline.
then hubby came home and I told him how I am. He asked if i was ok and I said no. Then I started to cry and he says "it's ok". I got angry and said it's not ok. I explained to him how quick my emotions rise and how I hate it and it's uncontrollable at times.
I think now he understands.
fir now I think I need to stay safe. I need to put all my triggers away so I can't do anything.
it's scary it really is.
im very much my to have an amazing caring doctor. And of course you guys.
thanks @Jupiter fir email check in.
I'm not sure how I'll cope the next hour.

@BlueBay ... you have done so well today. I actually see a number of positives there.

1. You saw your GP and you were honest with him. ✔

2. You now are reassured that he has your best interests at heart. ✔

3. Your GP is concerned about you and will be following up with you tomorrow. ✔

4. You have told your husband how things are ... and he is now aware and supportive. ✔

5. You kept yourself safe by calling lifeline. ✔

6. You have a very caring and amazing GP, whom you can talk openly to. ✔

7. You also have your many supporters here who are concerned about you and care very much. ✔

Bluebay you said yesterday that you dont feel that you have made any progress in the past 10-15 years. I see it differently ... I think you are very definitely making progress. I am not saying its easy, because I know this is incredibly hard for you. But so much was hidden before, but now that you are strong enough to cope with it all ... things are slowly coming out. And you are dealing with those things, you are coping. You are so strong, today proves that.

Now ... have you taken your meds? 💕

Sherry

@Former-Member

Now I can see what I've achieved today.
I took this mirning tablet. I'll tske tonight's after dinner so I csn remember.
I'm really tired. Very hot day here today. And it's going to get hotter rest of week.

@BlueBay I agree with @Former-Member

you have made any progress my sister xxx

it is very hard when things comes to a head and affects us again and again

i know mine is different and my father emotional / mentally abused me when i was young -- but it still raises it`s hard

@Jupiter

I'm so glad you have posted and you can see what your life is really and how you have improved @BlueBay

You are a very strong person and in your own life you have a wonderful family

I know - when things are dark it's hard to focus on the good parts - I really understand that - but in truth your family is pretty fantastic

Keep safe tonight - and please keep taking your medication - we care about you here

Dec