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not feeling good

not feeling good

At the moment i am not feeling good. i feel like my body is in 'run away mode'. i feel my body is running on a high, my head is so mixed up. i have to go to bed and try to sleep, but don't know if i can.

my hormones are everywhere at the moment; my mood is sky high negative. i can't deal with this anymre. all of a sudden i am not feeling good. i think it is anxiety.

i don't know why i feel like this; i just want to cry but can't becsue everyone is home. i am going to bed. i don't know what is going on. actually maybe it is anxiety because i felt like passing out today.

I went to my GP to have my mirena IUD taken out as I had had enough. But he couldn't find the string, so he sent me for a ultrasound. Had that and the guy said i had two fibroids and a cyst on my ovary. but he couldn't find the string either, so had to have an xray to find the metal piece. they didn't tell me anything. but while waiting i was so anxious i almost passed out.

so now i have to wait for tomorrow when my GP will call me at work and let me know what will happen now. hopefully he can take the mirena out. i don't know.

my body is reacting to my anxiety - i feel so shaky, i need to stop. no point telling anyone at home becasue (a) they won't believe me and (b) they prob wouldn't care.

sorry, i had to tell someone. i feel so alone 😞

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He won't do anything @Former-Member

think I'll go now and sit alone for a bit

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hi again @BlueBay

I am sure I share the concerns of many forums members about you stopping your medication. Please consider seeing your doctor as soon as possible about your medication. Are you able to keep yourself safe this evening? Reaching out to others and using your safety plan might really help ¥ou cope.

take care

Whitehawk

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@Former-Member @Former-Member @Shaz51

I can't keep going

it's hard with BPD

extreme emotions outbursts anger tears fear self hate self harm

this is my crap life

pathetic person who can't control her emotions

snaps at any second without notice

who wants thst

who wants me


It's all those guys fault

it's my mums fault

my psychologist

everyonf

does anyone believe me

im sorry

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The way I'm thinking atm I'm not sure I'm safe @Former-Member

goodnight @Former-Member @Shaz51

all these things in my head are negative past traumas

I'M ANGRY

I'm going

I can't talk anymore

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There is no need to talk @BlueBay

Just know we all care very much for you, and want you to keep yourself safe. You have so many reasons to live .. a husband and children who clearly love you a lot. And little A your much loved clever little ganddaughter. Please plan for a future @BlueBay and take your meds. You dont have to do any of this on your own, and I implore you to ask for help if you feel unsafe.

Love and a squishy hug, coz I really do care.

Sherry

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Thsnkyiu @Former-Member

i m going to bed

I don't really know why

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Re: not feeling good

Okay @BlueBay Good night. Hope you get some sleep tonight.

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Hi @BlueBay

I really hope you get some sleep and respite tonight. And may the morning bring you some comfort.

take care

Whitehawk

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Morning @BlueBay 😀

Hope you got some sleep and feeling a bit better today. 💕

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Hi @Former-Member @Shaz51 @Former-Member and others following

I'm really sorry about last night. I have made an appt to see my doctor this afternoon.

everytime I have a session I find it extremely difficult to reflect back without my emotions taking over.
something I need to learn.

im tired. I'm awake. Reg my meds I need to tell my doctor. The truth is I just need to take them. My psychologist told me yesterday it's a decision I'm making to not take them but subconsciously there's a reason. I don't know.

im scared. Really scared of not getting better. Thst this is it. I'll be like this forever. That thought is really huge. And the fear is huge.
I'm so messed up in my head. Sometimes I just want to scream so much or hurt myself so much just so people can understand me. Understand what it's like to have extreme emotions. It explodes from a zero to ten in seconds. And sometimes the reason can be trivial when I look back but at the time it's massive.

trust is a big issue fir me. Believing people when they tell me things. Like are they really helping me. Or are they just saying it. I have a lot of issues that I don't get.
@Former-Member Have you ever been so scared that you freeze. I'm having a huge cry right now 😢

and I don't know why.
I can't write anymore. Sorry.

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