not feeling good

I know you are sad @BlueBay

This is a bumpy stage of life and your emotions toss you around a lot and this isn't easy for you - it's not easy for anyone - but be gentle with yourself

It must have been lovely sitting outside on just a still morning and it was warm too. Up here there was a powerful gale at that time - there is a huge gumtree a couple of blocks from my place and I could hear the long gusts and I could smell smoke from outside somewhere

That's a very moving little verse you wrote there - that is your creative side helping you right now

Still thinking of you - Tueday seems a long time to go but it will come and go like everything else

Dec

Hi @Owlunar

tiday hubby went to nursing home and grabbed everything.we have just printed a large photo and out in frame. And I printed out the eulogy that the kids will read. Each child will read parts of it.
Yes Tuesday seems far away but it will come very quickly.
The weather has dropped to 14 deg here. What a day. Our car is red all over from wind. Poor Mildura copped it bad with dust storm.
I better go. I'll be back later. Xxx

Hi @BlueBay

It seems you are working through everything and getting it sorted - one thing at a time

We had a change late yesterday but if there was any significant rain I only felt a few very warm splats in the afternoon but we had a thunderstorm. No red rain - I saw pics on the news when I was looking up bushfires info - I grew up on a country police station in a semi-rural area where there were grass fires - I am sensitive to the situation from the emergency workers point of view because my father would be involved - we got the news pretty much first hand at home

I have just sent a text to my grand-daughter to keep in touch with her so far away from home and living where the bushfires were bad a few weeks ago - so far things seem safe where you are

Just keep plodding along atm - don't think to far ahead and just concentrate on your breathing if things get tense for you

Dec

I'm feeling unsafe vulnerable and emotional

no motivation

I don't care anymore

nothing ever goes right

Hi there @BlueBay.

I can hear from those few words that things are really challenging for you at the moment. Take care of yourself and keep sharing here if it will help.🌻

If you feel you need more support, please reach out to one of the numbers below.

Lifeline 13 11 14

Suicide Callback Service 1300 659 467

Immediate safety: 000

This doesn't sound good @BlueBay

Perhaps it's time to give your doctor a phone call - you have been through a lot recently

I think it's important to get in touch with your team

Dec

@Jupiter @Owlunar
cant get hold of my doctor

I'll try to be ok

I have to stay busy

but I'm tired

my head can't think

it's everywhere

I need to stop looking for wirk and a new house. I keep looking at least 3-5 times a day. It's driving me crazy. I can't concentrate

flashbacks of abuse are back since speaking to my brother the other day

ohhh my sister @BlueBay Take care of yourself and keep sharing here if it will help.🌻xoxo

here for you sooo much

@Jupiter, @Jupiter , @Faith-and-Hope , @Maggie

Can someone pls tell me it till be ok. I'm scared of my abuse that my brother did will come out soon. I've got a fear and feeling thst my mum will ask me.
pls I need to know I'll be ok

I'm scared. If she asks what do I say??

im so scared right now.
@Jupiter @Shaz51 @Owlunar others

ohhh my @BlueBay , you will be ok xx

with your mum , tll her the truth my sister

i tell my mum the truth or xxx