not feeling good

Hi @BlueBay

Taking yourself and your headache to bed sounds like a brilliant idea to me - that is self-care and self-nuturing. It's the best way to treat yourself

Independence is a valuble life-style to attain and I think the journey through life is to attain that goal and on the way we have to ditch toxic relationships and that leaves a hole in our lives - causes loneliness at times. We do have a choice of keeping toxic relationhips going and we have to think - which is worse - being alone or having someone else chippig at our self-esteem - I choose independence and over-time what was loneliness became being alone and yes - that is a possible aim too

I love @Former-Member idea of smashing crockery and banging saucepans - I remember doing this a long time ago when I became so angry about so many things - it was a relief but so noisy it might have scared anyone who heard but I didn't care - it did ease the pain of what was happening in my life at the time and I didn't hurt anyone

About your MIL - perhaps it's time for your husband or even you to go and tell her that it's okay to leave. I have read that the last sense to go is hearing. People in deep comas can sometimes hear what is said to them. I don't know how people know that but it might be time. I did tell my mother it was okay to die after she had her stroke - it took a few days but she did leave

No wonder things are so tense for you - it's really hard waiting for a family member to dieo - it's among major stress-issues

Thinking of you

Dec

I'm in such a foul mood right now with everyone at home

my whole routine is not happening

I know @Owlunar ive heard also hearing is the last thing. I think he shoukd say that to his mum

im glad I'm going to see my dietitian this fruday. I need a good cry. And he'll listen.

Right now I couldn't care less if I was here or not snymore

i am going to go away forever

never to return 😢

im so bloody angry

I want to use sh as a coping tool

because I just do

thus week has been hell and I can't pinpoint what it is

I am going to sh

I want to

i an not coping

I am so overwhelmed with anger

Hope you are ok @BlueBay

Try and take some deep breaths and maybe find your own space for a little while if you can.

@BlueBay 💕💕💕💕💕

Sending hugs and kind vibes your way @BlueBay

@Maggie @Gazza75 @MDT @Owlunar @Molliex @Zoe7 @Former-Member

@Faith-and-Hope @Shaz51

I'm angry and distressed

no money again

so what's new

hubbys wage got changed to next week

so instead of getting both pays in one week we now get one this week and his next week.
mines gone to bills

firgot to chsnge some direct debits thst now they took it out tiday.
it's all stuffed

I'm so anxious and not coping

I want to not deal with finances anymore

I feel like a child that doesn't snd csnt cope

Its hard really hard

I over this

I don't want to talk about this anymore

I can't think straight

or anymore

it's too late to fix things

I'm so screwed up

Hi @BlueBay I'm sorry things feel so hopeless for you right now. I'm going to send you an email shortly.

Take care of yourself. thecolourblue