not feeling good

@BlueBay, it could very well be stress, and understandably so. I don't think I would deal with everything you have going on.

I am going alright,.adjusting to new time. Zone. Still. Takes me. A. While now for. Some.reason. I am just at the gym for a while

I am struggling a bit at work, not very productive. Getting up skilled and thrown more work. To. Do. Not real thrilled about that. Have to roll. With the punches. As they say.

I think lindt is my favourite choc, silky. Smooth. How about you? I was drooling looking at all the ones posted the other day lol

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Do you know what @Gazza75 @I don't like Lindt chocolate. I prefer ferrero Roche. Any chocolate with peanuts. Oh and choc liquorice.
Yeah change of time is hard to get used to.
Omg I'm so angry at the moment eith hubby. He lost a bill. We get an overdue notice snd it's apparently my fault because it wasn't paid in the first instance.
I can't think. See I go from just been ok to now highly sngry.
Right now I want to be alone.
it's not my fault.

I hate myself

this BPD

goes from zero to 100 in an instant with my anger

my emotions are out of control

I want to go away

I've got too much on my mind

too much stress

I want it to all go away

Hang in there @BlueBay

It's not your fault about the silly bill. You both have a lot going on right now. Try not to let it.get you going to much.. Take some.breaths and maybe some. Space for yourself

Hubby could of sorted the bill out.

Those roche hazelnut chocs are.pretty.darn good . I enjoy fruit and nut a lot. I have a sweet tooth that wasn't much of a. Problem till recently. I used to drink a lot of milk to, but, I don't do that anymore.

I was thinking you could get some of those resistance bands. Someone mentioned the other day. I haven't really used them personally, but, they are versatile and pretty popular at the gym. Might help you unwind a little.

It's just a thought BB

I have to run soon

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so now all the other negative things have come to mind.

I want to self harm badly

Stay positive @BlueBay, SH isn't the answer. Will talk again soon.

Please be safe and know many of us here are thinking of you and your family right now and frequently.

Your not alone and we know its so hard.

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Hi @BlueBay

i am really sorry to learn that you are having the urge to self harm. It must be very tough for you this evening with all that negativity coming to mind. Please take care and get out your safety plan. I know you have the support of the community members here and that we are all sending you strength and courage,

please look after yourself,

Whitehawk

Hugs @BlueBay 💕

@Former-Member It's so hard.
tonight's snger is an accumulation of a few weeks

I'm so damn angry

I'm hurting

I struggle eith so much

I wish I could scream

@BlueBay

Oh I can hear that you have so much built up anger and you are hurting. I just hope that you appreciate that you have no reason at all to be angry with yourself. Please reach out for support off the forum if you need to talk about it.

Whitehawk