I can’t find peace

@outlander, I don’t know what’s wrong with me, I’m functioning during the school day but utterly miserable when I come back. It’s weird, I like being around kids but why do I feel utterly shattered afterwards?

Because it takes a toll mentally @creative_writer
Supporting other people esp when we are struggling ourselves is draining. It’s important to find ways to destress when you’re home. It’s easy to feel ok in the moment because you’ve put your own emotions aside to help that child/person to overcome something

@outlander, I feel like I should have my shit together 😫

So should I @creative_writer but here I am not having my shit together either. Sometimes we just have to cope the best we can at any given moment

Hi @creative_writer 💛

Those hours seem a lot wow..

I appreciate what @outlander has shared.

When I did school placement I regretted not telling my supervisor about my own struggles until the last day. My supervisor said it would've been helpful to know what I was going through instead of seeming like I only put 70% of work in.. I also had a wellbeing plan for placement with my uni which helped me with changing days when it was hard to show up because of all the overwhelm I felt.

I wanted to share how I navigated around it... I know how hard but also enjoyable the experience can be.

I hope it is okay to share 💛

fluffylight x

@outlander, I am sure you are doing well 💖

@fluffylight, I’m too scared to talk about my MH, I feel like I have to keep my personal life separate from professional life 💖

I can understand that and hold space for it 💛

I’m too scared to talk about my MH with my family so I keep my personal life seperate 🙃

@fluffylight ♥️, I feel so ashamed 🥺, I’m meant to be strong for the kids, but I’m falling apart

Sometimes I think by not being strong all the time it role models a version of an adult that they don't get to see otherwise.. an adult that has they ups and downs and that is not a robot at the front of the class teaching them..

I'm sorry for the shame you feel, giving your shame lots of virtual hugs.

Is work with kids something you would like to do? @creative_writer

@fluffylight, I guess I’ve learnt not to trust people over time, I never feel safe. It’s like there is expectation that I’m supposed to cope because I am in the field 🥺. I’ve always been careful in supervision, with my previous supervisors when volunteering in mental health because I felt like I had to be mentally stable in order to support others. It’s not the working with kids aspect, but I keep feeling like a lost child on placement