creative_writerSenior Contributor
I can’t find peace
I guess I’m used to living on the edge 😔
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I can’t find peace
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
Re: I can’t find peace
Hi @tyme
I have placement till the end of the year. I feel like I’m doing such a crappy job though, I’m weird and feel sort of disconnected from everyone. I am starting to enjoy it more though at least.
I feel so useless too, I know there are people who can work and manage uni, I can’t even handle more than 6 units (including 2 placement units) this year. I am struggling with a lower load
I have placement till the end of the year. I feel like I’m doing such a crappy job though, I’m weird and feel sort of disconnected from everyone. I am starting to enjoy it more though at least.
I feel so useless too, I know there are people who can work and manage uni, I can’t even handle more than 6 units (including 2 placement units) this year. I am struggling with a lower load
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tymeModerator
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Hey @creative_writer ,
6 units is actually a lot. It's considered a full time load.
When I was 'well', I could do 4 units a trimester. Once, I even did 5 units in a trimester.
However, when I became unwell, I could barely do one. I needed so many adjustments in place.
Be gentle with yourself.
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
Re: I can’t find peace
@tyme, it is true that it’s considered full time. I know uni can make adjustments, but I guess I didn’t feel like telling them I’ve been unwell. I had to take a sick day, didn’t really talk about it much, just said it was under the weather kind of thing. It was a combination of flu like symptoms plus mental health plus migraines. The lack of sleep might have triggered a highly agitated state, it makes no sense to feel energised for lack of sleep, but it happens. I got it under control with PRN plus sleep. I wanted to die, it was bad. At least I don’t need to be in a mixed state for some time, I don’t want a repeat of what happened earlier this year, I managed to cut it short with meds
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tymeModerator
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That makes it hard @creative_writer . Once you finish your placement and degree, is there a job you can find in your field that allows you to work with adjustments in place for your health?
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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@tyme, maybe I am too self-conscious about stigma, I feel like I have to do it alone. I know it’s not always a helpful mindset
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tymeModerator
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It's good to start seeing what's out there @creative_writer . Who knows? You may even start your own business in the future 🙂
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
Re: I can’t find peace
@tyme, I’m still trying to work out what I want to do. I’m learning a lot, I just wish things were easier. My body is starting to feel weird again 😔
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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I am a little upset, when I first had my med dose increased I felt more stable, but I guess my body has gotten used to it so it no longer has the same effect. Like I’m nowhere near as bad as I used to be, but I have had better days this year
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
Re: I can’t find peace
Why does it feel like it’s happening to my body again when it’s 05/08/23? I’m not in the past
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
Re: I can’t find peace
Will flashbacks ever go away completely?
