so anxious so pent up

just want to punchmyself in the head for not being able to get anything right

I hear how hard it is right now @ArraDreaming . I don't think it's about getting it right. It is what your body is experiencing right now, and it is real.

It's not that you are intentionally trying to be nervous.

just gonna go home cause I don’t want anyone to see me uoset @tyme got this urge to just go hide somewhere

It must be so hard to experience this, and for no apparent reason (am I right in saying there was no apparent reason?) @ArraDreaming

Also, logically, I understand that you are pretty much the sole bread winner and need to have a stable income?

Whatever you choose to do, we support you.

Text boss told him not feeling well I went home,
i let it win today I failed @tyme I failed as always
let the voice inside my head tell me what to do it and it won
and no my partner earns more than I do and works FT, but not for much longer will be on leave soon @tyme

i should have just stayed home from the very start but I’m an idiot
Dumb fuck

You did very well by going today, despite how difficult I could have imagined it would be. @ArraDreaming .

See that as an achievement.

And yes, you were unwell after lunch, and that's okay. You took the afternoon off.

So in between now and next time, maybe you can speak to someone about this anxiety so it doesn't rule your life?

Alternatively, can you think of a reason why the anxiety creeps up when it comes to thinking about work?

I was fine this morning I actually went to work fine even though I was struggling with it last night, normally it’s getting there that’s when it’s the worst, oncd I am there I am ok but i should of just stayed home anyway.

well I have work tomorrow @tyme so can’t fix it before then and got no idea
just always there

Then when it takes over I hate it

And the guilt I feel taking up peoples time including yours
I hate that

i hate knowing I have inconvenienced people