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Winter solstice

Winter solstice

Longest night of the year and the darkness and coldness have really hit. Things seem really bleak. I've been struggling for a long time and was pacing myself to this point but can't see beyond it. I'm safe but despairing. I'm trapped in a vortex of family dysfunction from earliest years and emotional pain, received and (mea culpa) inflicted. I can't help my closest sibling - all others are estranged - and I don't seem able to extricate myself from personal difficulties and dilemmas that at present ďefine me - I have no connections or other identity. I've lost faith in my mh team.

I guess the sun will rise tomorrow, and I'll keep taking one day at a time, but I can't envision a future, my future.

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Hi @Dimity , thanks for your concern ❤ Yes, I have a nebuliser, plus the doctor today gave permission for 5 more days of emergency steroids. I'm relieved. Plus stronger antibiotics, phew.

I see you're feeling pressure from having your transport helper for a few more weeks. I feel for you. I will send wishes for you.

My nice neighbour gets me groceries, and put my bins out last week too. But yes, it feels like I've been sick for months and my MH has deteriorated. This winter seems extra long, extra dark and extra cold.

Seeing your psychologist just for one more session - I hope it goes well 🤞

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Hi @tyme , sorry to hear you have asthma too. Yes, the icy wind doesn't help. Hope yours eases 🤞

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Yeah... childhood asthma @NatureLover . It's much better now, but I still have to be careful.

It was really bad when I was a kid.

Also, I'm going to send you an email shortly.

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Thank ❤️ you @tyme

Had to go to the city again for husband to be fitted with a 24 hour heart monitor today

Hope you feel better soon 💕

Get my results of my sleep test next week

I let some of my close family members what the kidney specialist said and now I wished I had not told them 😔

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I'm so glad you have care from your gp and nice neighbour @NatureLover . I hope you can explore digital resources at your library if you run out of books.

Sorry to hear you have asthma too @tyme . I'm fine at present (relatively speaking), highly relieved at weathering my cataract op a few days ago.

It looks like a cold weekend coming up. Ivdo hope you both can stay warm.

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That's tough @Dimity . How's the cataract recovery going?

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Awww @Shaz51 . It doesn't sound like they understand about your condition?

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Hello @Shaz51 I guess that's a trip back in to the city tomorrow too to return the Holter monitor. Fingers crossed it doesn't find anything serious.

I'm glad you finally did your sleep test, it's been a while.

Family can be tricky. I trust they're supportive and not worrying you. I've had some flak from family too.

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They are full of I "should" advice @tyme

Even though the kidney specialist is happy

My liver is up a little bit, so more tests next week

Then I see the diabetes specialist

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Holter monitors returns tomorrow, yes back to the city tomorrow @Dimity

I suppose we should expect some flax from our family 😁-- shows they do kinda care xx

Then we get the results

Then a eye test for any diabetes damage

Have to get a bone density test done but there is no appointments for months

@tyme

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