Winter solstice

Me too @Appleblossom . I've edited my post.

Hello wonderful humans,

Just checking in. 💛 @Appleblossom @Dimity 

Thanks @AuntGlow .

Hope everyone is ok ... quietly backpedalling here, with apologies ... take care

Thank you for letting me know @Dimity Thanks @AuntGlow

I need to be quieter.

I didn't get to read all that you both shared, but I am glad there is so much support and love between you both. You're allowed to share whatever feels safe and comfortable, within guidelines - remember that. 🥰

How are you both nurturing yourselves this week? @Dimity @Appleblossom

Thanks @AuntGlow I have so much complex trauma all mixed up it can be hard to know what is safe and comfortable, and when I need to lean into the distress to move through it. I have good things planned but also challenges I cannot avoid.

Sending a cooee to @Dimity

Gentle cooee @Dimity missing you....

we had a lot of raiin yesterday.

Unravelling (image)

Michael Leunig

The Road goes ever on and on

Down from the door where it began.

Now far ahead the Road has gone,

And I must follow, if I can,

Pursuing it with weary feet,

Until it joins some larger way

Where many paths and errands meet.

And whither then? I cannot say.

JRR Tolkien

I started this thread soon after awakening to a new and difficult phase of protracted family trauma. Ongoing pain and grief, with no resolution. Selfdoubt. It seems out of scope for professional support or interventions.

There are no answers, perhaps because I'm so incapable or inarticulate I'm not asking the right questions.

Please don't ask me to tell the community what I need. I'm here, or have been, and have tried to maintain family privacy as requested long ago by a younger relative. As a child my needs for food and shelter were met. I survived the lack or inadequacy of other basics, as well as instances of abuse and/or neglect.

I apologise for the many times I've upset other people. Sometimes it's been through ignorance, sometimes I've flailed in self-preservation.

There's no clear way forward - there never has been.

Hi @Dimity, I’m sorry you’ve been carrying so much pain and grief, especially when things feel unresolved and there doesn’t seem to be a clear way forward. You don’t need to apologise for struggling or feel that you have to find the right words to express what you’re going through.

I hear that you don’t want to be asked to explain what you need, and that’s okay. I just wanted you to know that your post has been heard, and you don’t have to have all the answers to deserve support.

How are you travelling today?