Winter solstice

@AuntGlow I guess it's finally dawned on me why my psychiatrist hasn't been supportive, and I don't think I can look to him for anything other than medication supervision.

Ongoing connection with a handful of forums folk helps keep me going.

I really don't know if I can face trying to find another support worker. It's very demoralising to be rejected. And I don't know if I can afford it when my gp has told me to arrange to see several allied health people, without offering subsidised referrals.

What my body is asking me to feel... is the continuing long and painful walk without a safe and welcoming destination. It seems a dark and bitter struggle.

Sending care and hugs @Dimity 🫂❤️

@NatureLover I hope your iron infusion is starting to kick in. I'm unwell and on strong antibiotics (I knew I was run down). I might also need more surgery.

I'm not sure what to do but don't feel up to goalsetting. I guess I'll be taking things quietly for a few days.

Awww hugs 🫂 @Dimity

Sitting with you and hope you feel better soon 💕

Oh no re being sick and a potential further surgery, @Dimity ! 😥

I definitely hope you can take it easy and not put any pressure on yourself.

The iron infusion takes 2-3 weeks to kick in, apparently.

@NatureLover @Shaz51 I see a surgeon tomorrow. Still unwell with infection (but inflammation subsiding). Very tired and depressed. Won't make a good impression on surgeon.

Oh, good luck with the surgeon today, @Dimity ! Will be thinking of you 🫂

Hello lovely, @Dimity 💛

I am so sorry that you're feeling like your psychiatrist may only be able to help with medication... it's truly so tough navigating healthcare professionals and knowing what they will/won't be able to help us with. It can be utterly exhausting and you're doing a wonderful job of putting yourself out there.

How are you feeling about all of this at the moment?

Connection here sounds really vital right now. Is there anything specific you're wanting to address with your forum friends? Here to listen. 🥰

I wonder if you can feel what you are feeling, but also create some safe anchors too?

@AuntGlow I'm actually not doing too well with healthcare professionals at present, I'm unsure of things and have felt misunderstood and rejected.

I'm very stressed by a family member's succession of accidents and illnesses and am unsure what to do there either.

I need to address my anxiety as Nurse on Call referred me to urgent care for dangerously high blood pressure. I haven't felt able to ask anyone about it.

This must be so overwhelming @Dimity 💛

With concerns around your family member and feeling unsupported by your healthcare professionals, I can only imagine how much you're holding... maybe we can work through this together?

What is most important for us to focus on this weekend?

And it sounds like going to urgent care will be really integral, especially if the nurse on call is concerned about your blood pressure. What might help you to get there as soon as possible?