Broken very broken

The evening is more natural and cool for walking in Aus

.. being nocturnal isnt the worst of ways to live ..

We survived the silli Seezun

Still many a sad, lonely and miserable time ahead scares and petrifies New Years, birthday more days more pain

And you will never find a mask as big or as strong as the Internet.

living in the country (or island) would be so isolating in itself. I havent found small country towns to be particularly caring or accomodating of any sort of difference or problems. It's hard 😞 You do get the beautiful places and open spaces though.

I'm sorry to hear that there are painful things coming up. Is there anything to help, or look forward to?

lj

This town is where I was born and grew up so I know more people here than anywhere, I can also go walkabout here, not that anything helps me at all I just want the pain to go away I don't want to hurt like this anymore

Online we are less constrained by fear we are able to speak and be free because we are in no way trying to protect ourselves nor impress we have nothing to gain and nothing to lose while in person and even via voice communication we are more limited some more than others I am nearly mute.

have you ever tried lifeline chat or phone? if things are getting really overwhelming or painful it might help?

hoping that you have some support from dr or mental health support people?

I'm glad that you can at least go walkabout where you are. And it sounds sort of comforting to be somwhere that you know the place so well. i've never had a place that i would call 'home'. never stayed anywhere for long enough i guess.

Take care

lj

Small towns are a double edged sword everyone knows everyone but it's a lot like a soap opera too, but everywhere is strange to me nobody likes me everything is empty lonely so very lonely