Down2Senior Contributor
Labels put on trauma & a bit more of my story
Hi,
I feel sad. I don’t want to get out of bed much atm. I’ve had so much trauma in my life and feeling of unsafe since a young child and when more high stress or abuse or nobody there for me / support has later occurred. My mother was a very unwell person. She suffocated her young brother when she was 16. So I never had emotional support. I went back and forth to my father. (While with him, sexually abused to different sick men). My full brother tried too. He died 7 years ago. He had to spend more time with my sick mother. He understood how my mother had an evil look in her eyes. I went to 10 schools.
It angers me that so called professionals (hospital psychs) put labels on me. (Bipolar) When in fact I suffer from ptsd (why is that not a term they use?) Why did they not validate my ‘feelings’ or stressors after major stress occurs and I had landed there?.. i have at times have had nervous breakdowns as my nervous system has topped to the brim and at times I have lost reality as I couldn’t cope. I have found it disgraceful that 90% of the treatment at hospital is drugs (although that has been required too). There should be so many other regular therapies offered there. I guess I feel angry, sad and disgusted. At least I can now make some sense of feeling those emotions. That’s been a hard thing for me to do in the past as I had to repress to be safe.
Because the govt has cut back mental health plans back to only 10 sessions a year it sux I cant see my psychologist as much. I do appreciate you kind people being here.
i’m quite new so I can’t remember all your user names. Thanks for being here and support. I appreciated feeling connected and I can’t talk to friends about this.
@FloatingFeather
