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Thanks @AD_SANE_LEM

You are wise.

Your answers have helped me a lot.

I also need to work on emotional regulation and learning to trust people. If anyone else asks you about this feel free to drag them over to this thread to read what you have already shared. It must be boring to keep repeating your story.

Thank you so much for being so forthcoming

Hello @Oaktree , @AD_SANE_LEM

I was emotionally and mentally and physically abused by my father until mum and I left But he kept rejecting me until his death

It is hard sometimes to carry on and not to remember the rejection

@Glisten , @PeppyPatti , @Zoe7 , @Jynx , @Ainjoule , @tyme

@Shaz51

I know right? My father was physically abusive and my Mother was mentally abusive as well as slapping me often. I keep thinking I am 53 now! My childhood was so long ago. But it still affects me.
@AD_SANE_LEM

Yes it does still affects me @Oaktree, @AD_SANE_LEM , sometimes I think it should not worry me anymore but it does and I am 60

And my dad passed away 17 years ago

Oh for sure @Shaz51 the scars of those old wounds still pang don't they? Sometimes it comes outta nowhere. Don't forget though that his rejection only reflects on him, and not on you or your worth. Can be hard to remember, but do try to eh?

Sending you some very squishy huggles!🫂

@Shaz51 @AD_SANE_LEM

I am sorry that you guys experienced childhood trauma. I know how destructive it can be. You are doing well coping with your respective challenges

Very true @Jynx

Dad's friends used to get soo mad at him because when he saw me he would dart into the nearest shop

Thank ❤️ you for the hugs 🫂

@Shaz51

Love to you hun.
Have you considered therapy?

I hope you can learn to move past your childhood trauma and feelings of rejection

@Shaz51 😮☹️😞 wow. That's a level of petty I wasn't expecting. I'm sorry you had to deal with that hun.

@Jynx @Shaz51 @AD_SANE_LEM

I understand rejection. After my diagnosis my Mother rejected me. She said I was “too hard”. Although she was wanting in the Mother department I still loved her and this hurt a lot. I did send her a card a few years ago asking for contact but she didn’t reply. I stole her address from my Aunt’s house from a letter she had just sent so I am pretty sure she received my mail. Now every time someone rejects me the same pain resurfaces all over again. If my own Mother can’t love me then surely I am unlovable right?