Feeling lost and depressed

I’m playing animal crossing & Mario kart @tyme - therapy has been hard and we dug into my trauma and my grateful things and all of that, it’s been getting hard and hard each time because I always come out upset for a few days and have to fight switch’s with my alters,

Things have been hard with my family aswell, they have been making me feel bad about myself and just have been judgemental about a few things. I hardly hear from my own father and all of that.

opening up about past abuse is hard. It’s not easy, I’ve been thinking about starting a mental health recovery scrapbook for myself to look back on when I have hard or bad days.

Also having BPD is hard because there is so judgement and so much stigma about it. They say you’re faking it for attention when you’re not. Also the same with DID, I have been told on several occasions that I’m faking it when I’m not, it gets me and my system very upset because they don’t understand us and they are making assumptions before they even know the full story about it. Also being told I have to show my paperwork that I have DID to get people to believe that I have DID. I shouldn’t have to show it though. Especially online where all the stigma is and being told I’m faking when I’m not.

@Kyle1 @Snowie @Shaz51 You guys can tag anyone you think would relate to me

hello @Fluttershy1

we have @BPDSurvivor

will do @Fluttershy1 ...

Your scrapbook idea sounds good BTW... It would be a way for you to process and cultivate a positive outcome. Something you can do. And hold in your hands. And, like you said: look back on things - and see recovery in it... 👍💙

I love the idea of a scrap book @Fluttershy1 It seems really good. It is a great idea that I might even steal!

I have a journal that I put photos and stickers in too. In amongst the despair, I have things that make me smile.

Opening up on past abuse is really really hard. I know how difficult that can be. It can make us more upset, but hopefully in the long run, it benefits us.

Please know that you are not alone in this struggle. You have so many people on here that want to help you 💌💌

Ok @Shaz51

Thanks for your input, I’m doing this task with my worker @Kyle1

You can steal it @Snowie, I just thought it was a great idea, I got a whole heap of craft stuff for it and stickers gunna get photos printed, yeah it’s really hard opening up about it. It was about my past SA and all of that.

am safe

@Fluttershy1 a scrap book with all the 'good' things in it is a great idea. Perhaps it is something you can start tomorrow or even tonight.

I've got past SA too, and I have opened up a little about it. I think we need a lot of coping strategies to deal with our past.

It’s so hard to open up about it, it just trigger us as a system @Snowie ~ Madi🥰

sorry the host got to overwhelmed so I’m out and I’m madi🥰

@Kyle1 @Shaz51 @tyme

@Fluttershy1 here with you 💗💗