Malens Babble

Granted Im not in a good place today, but honestly most people using this service probably arent. The chat feature has been down for I dont know how long, so you have to call. A little annoying for me as I have like zero privacy and chat means I can discuss my situation with some privacy. Failing that I am rugging up and going outside to make a call. Which I did today. I started when I left the pharmacy as i knew there would so I drove home on hold, to music that makes me want to self labotomise. An hour passed and all the sudden I hear a lady say lines are busy and hangs up. I had been progressing through the queue now I have to start from scratch. Im in pain (mental and physical but mental in this sense) and I am just dropped.

I know its not the workers fault and wont take out on them. I left feedback through correct channel but these are vunerable people, they deserve more than a you dont matter anymore cya later.

It doesnt help my mental health nurse from community mental health couldnt find time today to reply to my message I left this morning, which I followed up and confirmed was received.

Hey @ClockFace I'm really sorry you had this experience, not sure if it was with Sane's drop in or not, but if it was, we really do value your feedback and would encourage you to fill out a feedback and complaints form here

Sometimes we have technical difficulties, which is only natural in a digital service, but you are right people deserve better.

I'm sorry to hear you're in pain, there's nothing worse and it really does impact overall mental health as well. I hope it eases for you 💝

So I did get in touch with someone from SANE. There is one guy there who I have never had a good experience with but everyone else has been fantastic and this lady was no different.

Beyound Blue didnt give me anything but to refer me to the triage line. I dont want to go to hospital, I dont think it will help. My experience they would just give me more drugs to make me sleep or be so out of it it wouldnt matter. I didnt want that. I dont want that. If it came to a point where that was the safest thing for me then I wouldnt need anyone to suggest it I would do it.

Im not suicidal, I just want the Grim Reaper to hurry up.

Im sick, in pain (mentally and physically) and disabled and its not improving, it seems to be getting worse. My financial situation is getting worse. I am just healthy enough to work, sick enough that I use all my sick leave and then all my holiday leave goes to sick then its unpaid leave. Every year. Even my Long Service Leave went to being sick.

I have nothing to positive in my life, I mean I have Iced Coffee but nothing worth living for and I am trying to find something. Living for my family doesnt really count, thats living out of guilt. My Dad and I barely have a relationship, he cant even be bothered reaching me on my mental health. My Mum, well its all about her so whats the point there. My sister, I have no idea there at the moment. The whole lot of them cant stop complaining or interupting my routines, medication times, shopping time etc anything I do to manage my mental health.

I just seem to exist for someones pure enjoyment of my torture.

Hey @ClockFace Have you ever tried the peer care warmline? 💝

@tyme @hanami @Paperdaisy @FloatingFeather

Only out of interest why are we not able to say medication names. Doses I can kind of understand not exactly but it doesnt make sense to me

@Paperdaisy

Im wondering if they will help process the suicide attempts of my sister or direct me to an organisation that can.

Ive got access to a few suicide lines but Im honestly not suicidal, what an attempt did to me I couldnt imagine what a success would do to others

Hi @ClockFace

Good question! Basically, it's because it could be seen as medical advice/promoting certain medications. Hope that helps,

Hanami

@hanami

Ok thanks, makes sense.

Ive raised this behaviour before but I needed to do some shopping today. I have a doctors appt and an angigram (maybe, could have screwed that up) so for most people you would do shopping before or after that. But I cant because there would be too many people and I would freak out, so I went in early this morning.

I told Dad I was going in and he asked why I wouldnt after the above. I said too many people and he closed his eyes and shook his head. It would be good if he could just accept my issues, it would be great if he could understand my mental health but Id settle for accept what I have to do to manage.

Thats not to mention by the time I am finished walking through a hospital and driving like 45 minutes either way I am going to be in a fair bit of pain and not up to walking through Woolies.

That all being said, I may have stuffed the whole angigram thing. Im not supposed to drink caffine for 12 hours prior and I woke up and went about normal business and drank Iced Coffee and Mother so I have rung to see if its ok, its a $900 test so I want to make sure its gonna be ok.

Good idea to check re the caffeine @ClockFace .

Honestly you must be so utterly sick of the lack of acceptance and care towards you from your family. I feel it in your writing. I feel that you are a saint not to let them know.

Let us know how you go with the angiogram.

Hanami