What stops you?

Hi @BOD, I have just got on the forum and was reading your post. Please come back and speak to the wonderful support team here. They have a great deal of knowledge and are willing to help you with getting some help. We are all like minded pwople who have or are having troubled times in our life. Utopia mention and others have mentioned a lot of reason. Find the strength inside of you,as we all know it is there. You have make the first step in getting help and support and the knowledge from people who understand as you asked for help right here.

Please talk to us again and let the wonderful people her help you. they do understand what you are going through.

My dog. She's all I've got, and I'm all she's got. She's a feral little hound, and I worry that nobody would want her if I left her. I fight the feelings every single day. She knows this, and she does her best, in her funny doggy way, to help me fight to live.

@BOD I hope you are ok, please respond and let us know.

I battle with this constantly, thinking I would be a peace finally - things that stop me are:

1. My dog, he has been there everytime for me and knows when I'm not good and will comfort me. I couldnt bear the thought of him stressing over me being gone.
2. I dont really want to die I just want the pain to go away - so sick of it
3. I try to distract myself with either doing something or watching something
4. Once I tried what my DBT class suggested and it did help, hold an icecube in your hand to distract the way you are thinking and to calm you down
5. I dont know why or how but I have conditioned myself to just keep putting one foot infront of the other
6. I'm hoepful that one day I will be happy

Thing of you BOD

I am having one of my bad days,where I want to go to sleep and never wake,the hopelessness is like a tsunami coming at me,and I have nothing to wake up in the morning for,except two cats which have kept me alive but I worry when I am like this what will happen to them.The past few days I have had stress with my elderly mother which has contributed to my low state,eg:blaming me or making out I am irrational when she is the one at fault.This has gone on for years and when it's like this,I question if I can look after her in her old age .It hurts when my depression and anxiety and my exit from life four years ago was contributed by the way I was treated by her...it makes you realize you are just banging your head against a wall.What stops me?I honestly don't know,and when you are this low,its hard.When you go to the psychologist like I did last week and they go on with positive crap like how you will be OK or you are going to get a job,at the moment,it is a load of crap...that's when I know I need to go to bed to keep myself safe and try to read a book to remove the mind from my reality...that it's Hopeless .The fear of the act of taking your life is what stops you,but at times my hopelessness overrides this,or the sense of peace you get at times at the thought of not fighting to live or in emotional distress.

Hello @Former-Member, @Former-Member, @Change123, @Janee, @Arjay , sending you all hugs tonight , hope you are all ok today xx

Hello @BOD, how are you today ? , have been thinking of you , hope you are ok ??

@Shaz51 Hug gratefully recieved and sent back to you.

@BOD Hope you are doing better, or at the very least, feeling less alone ❤️

@Shaz51 @BOD And all (hugs). Thanks.

You are loved.

Cheers

Hello @BOD, we havn't heard from you for a while. I just thought I would see how you are.

yes I have also had these thoughts and only just last week. I know they do take time to go and with the right help you can help them pass . Please don't be a stranger to us as we would all like to help and guide you through these tough times.

What stopped me: knowing that there is a better life for me out there. It can be a long hard road to travel but with the right support you too can claim it back. I have become curious about what is out there for me. This is very hard when you know you are not in the right place to think about it right now. You too can do this.

Please respond to me and let me know how you are going. Let the caring people on this forum help you as well, even if it is one of them sending you a hug, it is nice to know someone is there.

Take care of yourself. 🙂 xoxo

Hello @Former-Member,

Hello @Janee, it is soo good to hear from you and thank you for the hug xx

Hello @Arjay,Hope everything is ok after what happen sunday , I am glad to hear that you are ok xx

@BOD, hope you are ok xx

Hello @Heart, you are totally right my friend , one step at a time xx