BODCasual Contributor
What stops you?
To those of you that have suicidal thoughts - what stops you following through with it? Feel like I'm fighting a losing battle....over it.
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What stops you?
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ArjaySenior Contributor
Re: What stops you?
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So I did try once, my only memory was that I didn't think there was anything staying around for.(of course there was), fortunately for me I didn't do any permanent damage. I still have the thoughts but I know it's not the solution to the problem. I know it's not the right thing to do. I believe it would leave a bigger mess than the one that is here now. I think someone has mentioned this.
I have on many occasions since rung lifeline and they have been wonderful to chat with. I wouldn't hesitate to ring them again.
Cheers.
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espritSenior Contributor
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I'm sending you my positive thoughts and hope the sun comes out soon for you. It's such a horrid feeling I know. So black. Please keep talking on here. there are some really wise people who have been through a lot and understand. Xx
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Unknown userMember
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good question, im glad you wrote this and i'm watching. my kids are my reason for keeping on going.
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Unknown userMember
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What keeps me going? It has changed over time. One reason I stay is that I'm still responsible for a dependent child (who is fast morphing into a young adult).
Mostly at the moment it's the faith my counsellor has in me that I can lead a better life. She backs this up with her actions.
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utopiaSenior Contributor
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@BOD. What stopped me from following through on these thoughts.
1 - the thoughts scared me - they were violent
2 - I didn't want to die - I just didn't want the pain anymore
3 - because I have to believe that things will get better - I have to believe there is a purpose to my life
4 - I have a child - a teenager & I'm his main carer - I cannot put him through the pain of me killing myself - what would that teach him - that if it gets too hard - suicide is the only option - no - I want him to see that even though there are times I struggle - I won't give up
5 - I couldn't do it to my mum or sister or best friend.
6 - I know that this will pass
I wonder if you have a support team around you - a gp, psychologist, psychiatrist?
I wouldn't have got past my SI without their help.
1 - the thoughts scared me - they were violent
2 - I didn't want to die - I just didn't want the pain anymore
3 - because I have to believe that things will get better - I have to believe there is a purpose to my life
4 - I have a child - a teenager & I'm his main carer - I cannot put him through the pain of me killing myself - what would that teach him - that if it gets too hard - suicide is the only option - no - I want him to see that even though there are times I struggle - I won't give up
5 - I couldn't do it to my mum or sister or best friend.
6 - I know that this will pass
I wonder if you have a support team around you - a gp, psychologist, psychiatrist?
I wouldn't have got past my SI without their help.
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Unknown userMember
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Love this thread.
WHAT STOPS ME?
- other parts of me want to live
- my son might follow
- there's something left to learn
- I'm gonna die anyway one day
- i my dog
- tell myself the wave of pain passes
- ring someone who tells me I'm worth it
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WHAT STOPS ME?
- other parts of me want to live
- my son might follow
- there's something left to learn
- I'm gonna die anyway one day
- i my dog
- tell myself the wave of pain passes
- ring someone who tells me I'm worth it
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Unknown userMember
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BOD As I have always said about my depression and anxiety,for the past 4 years I have gone through bad storms.It is hard because it wears you down and you get scared and worried that you can survive the next one .I have been very suicidal all year,I don't have the answers for you,just I have done everything to keep myself "safe",whether it is reading books to divert the thoughts or walking when I'm not having a bad day where I need to go to bed for my "safety".I don't have kids,I honestly am surprised I am still alive,as stated on this site ,I have been rock bottom and have been close to wanting to be hospitalized due to strong thoughts,and at times when I have been at utter despair and distress and those thoughts,have had a feeling of "peace"and "relief"at the thought of not fighting it anymore and giving up.This is when my psychologist was concerned for my Welfare when I described the peace I felt in the moment of suicidal thought.At the end of the day it's just another decision to be made in life.Just hang in there like we all try to do and use self care tactics.
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BillieContributor
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I think the though of actually doing it, is so terrifying that it stops me.
I do recommend calling lifeline, talking to someone that understands makes a huge difference. Or going emergency room if you dont feel safe, even if you dont get checked in - just being in a different environment can lessen the pain until the urges go away.
Small things like splashing your face with cold water, or getting some exercise to increase your heart rate actually helps a lot - this will also help with sleep which makes a huge difference for a clear head.
Your not alone, all the best 🙂
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espritSenior Contributor
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How you doing?
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SehnsuchtSenior Contributor
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Bumping this so as to follow thread, hoping it will come useful when I have spoons to read. Much love to all. xx
