Gillie1Senior Contributor
How fuxxin stupid am I
I thought they had done everything possible to destroy my world. I should have bloody known better.
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How fuxxin stupid am I
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Kyle1Senior Contributor
Re: How fuxxin stupid am I
@Gillie1 I'm not sure I'm following along here, but what ever 'it' is sounds, still, very raw. To detach & disconnect from that depth of entanglement is no easy feat. Atleast, for some of us, who still have the sensitivity of human feeling...
Anger is just sadness inside out they say. I don't know - maybe.
🫂 I'll be around for a while if you want to talk more about it.
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Kyle1Senior Contributor
Re: How fuxxin stupid am I
First of all: are you safe? Do you still have a place to stay? @Gillie1
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Gillie1Senior Contributor
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- Sometimes anger is just anger and it is right. The problem is that I don't have any one person to be angry at and not a thing I can do to change the situation. I can only do my best to be myself and get on with life. I'm just not sure how now.
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Gillie1Senior Contributor
Re: How fuxxin stupid am I
I am physically safe
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Kyle1Senior Contributor
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@Gillie1
So, what has changed since yesterday, that leaves you today feeling like there's not a thing you can do?
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Gillie1Senior Contributor
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I worked out that the one coping strategy I had left to manage my anxiety, trauma, ruminating thoughts that are all consuming at times, is no longer a safe space for me. I don't want to say anything more about it.
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Kyle1Senior Contributor
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@Gillie1
OK.
Wishing you well this evening. May God bless 🙏
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Gillie1Senior Contributor
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@Kyle1 Thanks family caring Kyle. Have a good evening.
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AppleblossomSenior Contributor
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Just logged on @Gillie1
Glad you got some support through it all ... in real life and on here.
Feelings....
Anger ....
Most of us have felt it .... and yes internalising it all the time is not healthy .... finding ways to express it ... a challenge ...
Yes triggers matter ....
regulation matter ....
its all bloomin complicated.
Take Care
Apple
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Gillie1Senior Contributor
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Thanks Apple.
I regulated what I could. I kept me and others safe physically and emotionally. I started to feel safer so wasn't expecting to get sideswiped again. I knew if I didn't let it out with limited control it could eventually come out uncontrollable and I refuse to become that. I keep finding new levels of emotional intensity lately. I'll face tomorrow tomorrow. Take care everyone. P.s. Sorry for the swearing.
