Trying to ignore it

Hi @Eden1919 I'm sorry it's so scary and that ur having feelings and fears relating to ur care team harming you.

A lot of people go through these feelings and ur not alone.

Is there anyone in ur care team that has been helping?

I hope you are able to get some rest, as well

People say to tell urself ur safe but that's never worked for me...I like what U did better which is open up and share with others. Hope U have some ppl to share with irl too , as these topics are hard to talk about

When I feel really bad I feel like no one truly cares about me and I'm alone and an island. It's painful and scary at times trying to battle my problems alone.

I relate to not trusting ur team and feeling alone. I hope ur ok ☀️♥️🙂

@EternalFlower Thanks for your reply I have a good psychologist who I am not so scared of so that is something at least I guess but it is hard. I am trying my best to just keep on top of things and to not get too scared but it is hard maybe once my appointment is over in a few days I will feel better hopefully anyway.

Hi @Eden1919 hope ur ok and ur appointment went ok?

@EternalFlower Hi the appointment wasn’t great I mean I came out alive so that is the main thing but I am sad they want to put me on another treatment order which means I can’t stop having the injections that I don’t like and they didn’t do much in terms of changing my meds that have been making me so sleepy all the time. So idk what to do I just feel a bit sad about the whole situation but it could have been worse I guess.

That sounds unfair and not helpful I'm so sorry @Eden1919

It is understandable U feel sad I would feel very sad and tired of the system. Its hard how the drs have all the power and we have so little...

@EternalFlower Yes it is very hard the dr just kept talking about how I can’t go off the meds or I will become unwell again but I am just so tired of the side effects and such that I don’t want to take the meds at all. Still I suppose I will just have to see what happens and hope for the best.

Sounds good @Eden1919 you're right perhaps you will be able to get off the treatment order soon and things might change ?

Does ur service offer peer support work or any advocacy connections? Ive read a bit about pro bono lawyers etc that can help people at MH tribunals etc. Hang in there and Im sure good things will come 🤗

@EternalFlower no they dont offer any peer support and i have tried legal aid but they are useless and dont even try and fight for you. i just hope the doctors at least start listening to me about the side effects and actually do something about it because i am just so sick of them.

So sorry @Eden1919 I had the absolute worst experience with legal aid as well...

I hope drs start listening to you as well.

I did not agree with my diagnosis either from the service and am trying to get it changed and removed.

I think U sound logical and U have a right not to take medicines that you feel have bad side effects.

@EternalFlower i guess we will just have to wait and see what happens at the tribunal. hopefully it isnt terrible oh well there isnt much i can do for now i suppose but i will keep trying to explain my side effects to the doctors. i am sorry you have been misdiagnosed i have been misdiagnosed before and it sucks.