Piecing the shattered glass together

I hope your headache didn't bubble into a full blown migraine, @creative_writer 🫂🧡

Thank you, friend.

Today has been a rollercoaster for me...from weary, to levelled off fine, over to critical, then stampede into hateful for a moment, then outright sad, zoomed up to good vibe fun, and now 😳

I forgot my med last night and stayed awake for hours more than usual. Woke up short changed. Was late taking morning meds... I don't know if it's cause for roller coaster day today, but that's news.

Other than that, it's been another brilliant Autumn day here in the valley! I discovered another Mary Oliver poem which I am newly infatuated. I will try and share it with you, OK? @creative_writer

Starlings In Winter

Chunky and noisy,
but with stars in their black feathers,
they spring from the telephone wire
and instantly

they are acrobats
in the freezing wind.
And now, in the theater of air,
they swing over buildings,

dipping and rising;
they float like one stippled star
that opens,
becomes for a moment fragmented,

then closes again;
and you watch
and you try
but you simply can't imagine

how they do it
with no articulated instruction, no pause,
only the silent confirmation
that they are this notable thing,

this wheel of many parts, that can rise and spin
over and over again,
full of gorgeous life.

Ah, world, what lessons you prepare for us,
even in the leafless winter,
even in the ashy city.
I am thinking now
of grief, and of getting past it;

I feel my boots
trying to leave the ground,
I feel my heart
pumping hard. I want

to think again of dangerous and noble things.
I want to be light and frolicsome.
I want to be improbable beautiful and afraid of nothing,
as though I had wings.

by Mary Oliver

@creative_writer

I've done that too @creative_writer , but my body tells me...

And, not to mention, I've taken nights in the morning and mornings in the night! That's bad....

I really shouldn't have an excuse because I have webster packs lol.

With the webster packs, I don't have room for error because it means I don't have enough meds. The chemist is about an hour's drive away. I get my meds delivered to my house each fortnight. @creative_writer

Getting married and having kids would just be added stress on top of everything right now @creative_writer . I guess culturally there is a lot of pressure. However, I am finding less and less people are getting married and having kids nowadays in Australia.

People just live together and if kids 'happen', it happens..