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Making a report on my historical childhood sexual abuse
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Today has been a very difficult day filled with mixed emotions. I had a phone call from Victims of Crime Support and am assigned to a case worker. She was very empathetic, explained the process of going to the police. She later called back to say she had phoned the police (SOCIT) in my area and the detective she spoke to outlined briefly what would happen if i went in to make a report.
As one of my 3 abusers is now deceased i can make a disclosure report and then they will close the file.
Doing this will hopefully give me validation and closure and Victim of Crime Support said I will then be able to get some compensation for counselling.
I was to call the detective and spoke to her for a few minutes. we have made an appt for this coming thursday for me to go down to see her and give all the information about my historical abuse.
Now this is where i am nervous, anxious but at the same time i feel i need to do this for closure and validation that someone is listening to me.
I am not really sure how i will feel on thursday morning, i'd say very anxious and scared.
If someone asked me to do this years ago I would have said no. but i feel that i am at a different headspace now to go further.
So many questions running through my head. the victim of crimes support case worker will call me on friday to see how i am.
i have just emailed my psych to see if i can see her on wednesday.
have i done the right thing? i think i have but doubts.
i hope i haven't triggered anyone.
