Not Coping

It's hard lying to them. I said how work was busy the other day even though I'm not working. I said I went out for dinner last night, and that's why I couldn't talk. When really I couldn't talk because it's hard in here when I don't know if a Nurse will come and check on me @creative_writer.

Hey, is anyone up for a chat?

How’s your treatment going @Birdofparadise8 ?

TMS is going okay.

I haven't been feeling great today, though. I just feel so alone and sad.

How are you @Bow

It can get lonely in there @Birdofparadise8 especially when you don’t have any visitors. Are there any activities that you can perhaps get involved in? Go have a chat with a nurse?

im okish. My anxiety has been terrible today though. My friend has taken my daughter for a couple of hours to play with her granddaughter. I’ve given my room a good tidy, hadn’t really unpacked! I set up a water feature I was given for my birthday back in April, it sounds very relaxing. I’ve just hung a shelf that I’ve had even longer! Just trying to keep myself busy so my anxiety doesn’t take over.

Not today being the weekend.

Mmm, I'm not sure they've just done handover. I've been lying on my bed crying, listening to sad music and tik toks.

Sounds like you're very busy. How has it been since being back at home @Bow?

Hey @Birdofparadise8 sitting with you, you're not alone 💝

do you think perhaps you should change the type of music you are listening to @Birdofparadise8? Sad music is just going to make your mood worse. Maybe some upbeat music. I like pink album trustfall and mileys endless summer. They have some good beats.

I’ve been okish since being home. I’m eating ok despite desperately wanting to restrict. My depressive mood is better, so I’m glad ECT has helped. But my thoughts are still bad, as is my anxiety. And I’m really struggling to get out of the house. Don’t want people to see my body. Withdrawing from a lot of people and activities that I normally do

Thank you @Paperdaisy

I just want today to be over already.

I've just been watching some tv instead @Bow.

Oh okay, do you see any of your supports this week? How did you go eating in the hospital?

I know this may sound weird and I don't have a lot of info on eating disorders, but could you pretend that you're still in hospital and eat like you did there?