Not Coping

Hi @Kyle1 @creative_writer @Captain24 @Bow

How are you all going tonight?

@Birdofparadise8 well...it's morning now. and I've woken with sever anxiety once again. the kind that leaves me nauseous. the kind that makes me want to runaway to sea. the kind where I wish I were invisible.

the kind where I could rattle and shake until exploding into a thousand tiny birds to fly away and vanish

Oh no @Kyle1 I know that feeling all to well anxiety is the worse especially when it make a you feel sick. I really do hope your day improves.

I’m a little nervous myself I have an appointment with my psychiatrist for the first time at 9:30.

Hope your appointment goes well @Birdofparadise8

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Hi @Eve7

I just had the appointment. The doctor wants me to stay on the medication I've been on for five weeks, making everything worse. He did increase another medication I am on to see if that would help me sleep more. I don't see him again till July, so I've got another six weeks of torture to wait. He said, though, if things haven't improved by then that we could be looking at bipolar depression, and then I would need to try a mood stabiliser instead.

I'm disappointed with the outcome. After all, I don't want to stay on the current medication because everything has been so bad the past few weeks. However, I wasn't expecting anything to happen. I've just had enough of all this.

@Kyle1 @amber22

I had my psychiatrist appointment.

Hello! How did it go? @Birdofparadise8

If you see my post below, I said what happened @amber22

Oh I see. I am sorry that you're feeling a bit disappointed about how it all went @Birdofparadise8 I guess it is a bit of a step forward as to what might happen next time you see him, and a potential to change onto mood stabilisers.

Do you see that as a bit of a positive take away?

I don't know @amber22

I just want to give up so much right now.