Not Coping

It's not about saying people have to do things for you @Birdofparadise8 . It's more about not being able to believe in yourself that you CAN do it, and that instead, you need to lean on someone/something/a group of people in order to survive.

For now, it's okay to rely on services and people until that crunch time comes and you are willing and able to stand on your own.

Take your time. Don't rush it.

We acknowledge you are doing everything you can. If it means you surviving by the hour, then so be it 🙂

We believe in you.

Okay, well, I definitely don't believe in things right now, @tyme.

My psychologist is holding hope for me with my psychiatry appointment on Wednesday, as I don't even see the point in going. I don't see how it's going to change anything that I don't already know.

I've literally been talking to KHL every day since Tuesday foe safety check-in and stuff.

Did I tell you about the police?

I believe the police phoned you @Birdofparadise8 ? - if I remember correctly.

Better than them turning up unexpected and taking you to the hospital... now THAT's not nice.

Yeah, that was bad enough @tyme

They didn't know where I lived, so that is the only reason they didn't come here.

Also, someone who calls the police is supposed to let you know before they are called. I didn't know an MH professional was calling them.

They can track exactly where you are by your phone call @Birdofparadise8 - they don't need your address.

As for the MH service, I'm not sure they have to tell. I was never told when the services were called for me.

Oh yeah, that's true. I asked the officer, and he knew where I worked I asked him if he had my address and he said no and I was surprised, but as I said I was fine he wasn't too concerned. To be honest, I only said what he wanted to hear as I was going to work and didn't want people to worry about me @tyme.

Well I think I should have been included as you work for SANE do you let the person know?

SANE was the one who called the police on me through the GS.

I'm not sure whether the person has to be told @Birdofparadise8 . If someone is at imminent risk, we don't wait to tell them that we have contacted the police. It's usually, "no, don't call the police. I'll be fine". But duty of care means we are mandated to contact them.

True, I probably would have said that, @tyme.

I wasn't, though, so I don't know why they called in the first place, or at least I don't belive I was or am.

I can't say. I don't know what happened @Birdofparadise8 - I'm just glad you are okay.

I can see you are making progress and I really think your independence will allow things to get worse so they can get better.

I have faith in you.

I sent an email with my plan and that nothing would change my mind and that I was going to go through with it either Thursday through to Monday one of those days @tyme.

I managed to control the situation with the police and SANE, luckily.

KHL and my psychologist also wanted the police and an ambulance, but that didn't go too well.

Wouldn't say I'm feeling good right now my thoughts are all over the place [edited by moderator] but I promised my regular I wouldn't go get it and if I wanted to I needed to call, but I couldn't be bothered to talk over the phone to anyone right now. I am also crying but oh well, you'll say that's good anyway.