Not Coping

I haven't seen my aunt this week but probably will on Tuesday unless she wants to catch up another time.

I just have some lecture material to do and I need to look for some work shoes as I finally got my uniform for work.

I also will have a chat with my regular at KHL @Kyle1.

What about yourself?

I'm trying to not cry right now.

I have something I can do over the weekend. We'll see how the coming days unfold. I never quite know how I'll wake up from one day to the next.

Will I be anxious?

Will I be depressed?

Will I be both?

Will I be numb?

Will I be ... fine?

This morning I was anxious.

Tonight ... not so much.

Needless to say, I hardly make plans anymore. Having a 'loose schedule' has helped to a degree.

Someone gave me a gift yesterday, and I really drew on that to get by today...

Can you think of anyone who might like a gift, @Birdofparadise8 ?

Ah, okay, I get that @Kyle1.

Mmm, not really.

That's what I'm sort of thinking. Im reading back posts and it seems like when you started these new meds, it's just gone downhill. That is, the crying etc. I know we said to give the meds time to kick in, but this is definitely something to speak to the GP or psych about. @Birdofparadise8

I tried heaps of different anti-depressants before I got one that really works. I'm so glad i found it.

Yep every time I go on something or increase the dose I feel so much worse @tyme

Maybe you ? ...

If you would gift yourself, what would it be @Birdofparadise8 ?

Pancakes?

Neroli?

Actually, I remember I have a facial tomorrow, so that will be a nice 45 min to try and forget about my life for a bit @Kyle1.

Can I ask you a personal question about SI?

Good on you for booking in a facial! @Birdofparadise8 Enjoy!

Thank you @tyme

Are you on GS tonight?

I'm not officially on GS tonight, but I do have calls I have booked in 🙂 Just to get them in and to reduce wait times @Birdofparadise8 . Such is life 🙂

So you have a facial tomorrow, and what else is in store for you tomorrow?