Not Coping

Well from what I’ve learnt over the past few months of dealing with them myself and learning more about them with my psychologist. I don’t think they are necessarily a bad thing it would depend on the situation like I hear that a lot of people just get intrusive thoughts and that might be it. Or it could be passive and then active thought. Maybe if they get to a stage where they are dangerous towards your self then I would say it’s bad but over all not necessarily a terrible thing it’s just your minds way of trying to work out what’s happening and a way for you to escape the pain your feeling.

I hope that makes sense that my view on it so I hope that’s okay. @tyme @Captain24 @creative_writer

No it’s not wrong @tyme. They are a part of life and I lot of people have them. Even when I was stable I still had them but just let them float past.

Yeah I know there is a difference between them sorry if I didn’t make that clear in the post @creative_writer

How is it with your dad knowing about your suicidal thoughts because my parents don’t know and I just don’t know how to tell them. I don’t know how they would react it was hard enough telling them I have depression.

Oh okay so he didn’t know till it happened @creative_writer ?

Did it help him knowing or not really?

Thank you for sharing your responses to my question. @Birdofparadise8 @Captain24 @creative_writer . I'm only asking because just so you know, I have chronic suicidal ideation and thoughts. I used to get so down and depressed about them. I tried to 'get rid' of these thoughts because I thought it was not 'normal' to have them.

I later learnt that because of my trauma and my condition, it was actually very 'normal' to have these thoughts. It took a while to accept this, but eventually, when I let go and accepted it, there has been a real liberating feel. It's like a burden has been lifted. The feeling is incredible.

All my life, I fought and battled these thoughts.... and it got me nowhere. The more it tried to not think the thoughts, the more I thought of them.

Now, as @Captain24 mentioned, these thoughts just float away. They no longer take the driver's seat. They are a passenger...or maybe even in the boot of the car!

@creative_writer - neuroplasticity does take time. But the results last. If you religiously practice strengthening your brain, you WILL see results. Please don't do what I did. I waited for the 'magic day' when everything would be alright. I ended up waiting 10 years before I actually finally accepted that recovery is an active process. I couldn't be passive and wait for recovery to come to me.

I definitely understand the wanting to get rid of the suicidal thought I try that myself and it ends up making them worse as well. It seems to be when you tell yourself to stop thinking about it it makes it worse.

Im sorry to hear you have them as well @tyme there not fun at all.

My current thoughts aren’t thoughts they are pretty powerful urges. @tyme. It’s taking everything in me to stay safe