Not Coping

@creative_writer it's so busy here, I might not even find a coffee! ...

I thought you said you didn't do SH @Kyle1.

Are you going for food or a drink?

Oh okay. I'm here with you, @creative_writer.

I have one time. It felt good.

And you told me how addictive it can be.

I've been having those thoughts this morning, and so got myself out of the house...

Now that I'm out I know it's going to be a rough day no matter what... @Birdofparadise8

It's okay to have a rest day, @creative_writer.

Just take the day slowly and see how you go. There's no rush.

Yes, so I've been told... @creative_writer It's not like I desire the practice, though. The one time I did it was very recently, and I bit down into my lip and was surprised at the relief I felt

it came to me as a resort this morning.. and searched desperately for distraction... hence, I came out of the house awhile...

Ah, okay; I think you mentioned your lip, if I remember correctly, @Kyle1.

I know I can't judge you and tell you what you can and can't do, but in my experience, it's not worth it. When I started, I didn't think much of it like my friend told me how addictive it is and I didn't believe her and I wish I did.

People judge you, tell you to stop, and ask why you do this to yourself. You feel guilt, shame and disgust when I do it. Then you are left with marks that take so long to fade. I don't wear shorts or bathers anymore. I haven't gone swimming since I started because of people finding out.

I get that small moment of relief, but it's just like a drug or alcohol addiction. Once you start, it's hard for some. I know for myself. I'm trying to work on cutting it down and doing it less, but it's more complex some days. No pun intended lol.

I know I did it yesterday and I probably sound condescending that I'm trying to help you not do it.

Yeah, I feel you there, @creative_writer. It is so addictive.

Maybe you could have a shower and see how you feel?