Not Coping

Ah okay @Kyle1

May I ask if this is mental health related and physical health as well?

@Birdofparadise8 Yeah, mental health. I literally can not get off the floor somedays. It's 3 in the morning and I'm a wreck.! EVERYDAY. I can not cope.

Tremors. Tears. Torrential levels.

I've begun having impulse thoughts on making it just stop.

Hello @amber22 @Bow @creative_writer @Shaz51 @Captain24 @Kyle1

How are you all today?

Do any of you have much planned for the day?

I am resting up from this cold as I have a Biochem practical I have to go to tomorrow so I can't miss it. I will watch some TV. Does anyone have any good recommendations? I will also do some research for my two upcoming essays, so I have started them.

Every day at three, OMG, that wouldn't be very good @Kyle1

Do you get suicidal thoughts as well?

They aren't fun. I am unsure if you saw any of my posts yesterday about how the counsellor at KHL said to think of something I can do for myself. I came up with dying and self-harm as a kind thing for myself and the people around me. Like seriously, I also can't get a break from these thoughts.

@Birdofparadise8 Yeah, that's where it's at for me now...

I don't like it. But I feel helpless, and there's nothing more I can do about it...

Still and all, I long for company more than dying to be honest.

Yeah, okay do you see a psychologist or another mental health professional @Kyle1

@Birdofparadise8

Trying to... apparently the mh services are overworked and under resourced... I'm beginning to believe it's over rated, too.!

I know right it sucks big time that we can't get the help we need when we need it. You have to wait until you're in a crisis or you have attempted your life to get help. It's the same with physical health as well in the public system you're only seen once things are bad not before they don't want to prevent you from getting worse which makes no sense. As it would cost more to look after someone that is sicker than a person that isn't as sick @Kyle1

@Birdofparadise8 yes...it's maddening in and of itself...

Reminds me of a line from 'Masked and Anonymous' : "it's a bitched up world, Jack. The most we can do to protect ourselves is by going mad" ...

@Birdofparadise8 and @Kyle1 , sending you both positive vibes 🤗💖. @Kyle1, sorry to hear you are not doing too well. The MH system is far from perfect, finding a psych or pdoc that is still taking new clients in can be hard. I can't see my psych frequently enough that I have a counsellor from a different service for the weeks in between. 10 medicare rebated sessions are so limited too, but thankfully, there are other services available, but finding them can be difficult. I only got more help after engaging in preparatory suicidal behaviour, I was at crisis point.

Feeling a bit fed up, but I'm fine.