Not Coping

Im pretty good @Birdofparadise8.

How are you going today?

Well I’m happy to hear someone is going okay @Captain24.

My day has been awful I’m worse then yesterday so that’s just great. I did make some ice cream though to help distract me from my never ending thoughts. I thought yesterday was bad enough but today I’ve just had enough.

When do you see your psychologist? @Birdofparadise8

Hopefully he will call me tomorrow to book in another appointment so I’m not sure. I’m a bit lost without seeing him to be honest it’s been like 2 week and I’m finding it hard. I normally find one week painful enough hahah @Captain24.

I can understand that @Birdofparadise8. I hope you can get in.

I email my nurse a couple of times a week and see her at least once sometimes twice a week. But she is going on two weeks holiday. Im freaking out a little!

Something my nurse got me to do when I felt worthless was to right down what I had achieved in life. I don’t know if that may work for you?

That’s nice you have that regular check in.

Do you have other people to talk to while she is away for those two weeks @Captain24?

Mmm okay I’ll give it a go I guess I don’t feel like I’ve achieved anything so not sure what k would think of.

I have a GP app the first week and I’m hoping she can fit me in the following week as well. My nurse did give me the name and number of one of her colleagues if I really need to get in contact. Hopefully I stay where I am!

Ok. I’ll start for you @Birdofparadise8 and remember I only know the you on here.

You have done ballet exams.

You have done solos.

You have performed in concerts.

You completed YR 12

You got accepted into uni.

You passed first year?

You got accepted into your new uni!

That’s a pretty good list! Im sure that now it’s started you can think of more!

If you weren’t good enough you could not have achieved any of this!

Well that’s good you have other people to reach out if needed @Captain24.

Thank you for that I guess I have done a few things. I have passed two of my units this semester I failed the other two so I have to do a hybrid exam next week. If I don’t I’ll be screwed big time. I just feel like I should have and been doing more. The past 6 months has just gone by so fast and I feel like I’m just going backwards not forward.

What’s a hybrid exam? @Birdofparadise8

I hear that it’s been a really tough 6 months. Are you able to apply for special consideration?

It’s just an online open book exam @Captain24.

I do have a learning access plan as I’m dumb hahah. I don’t know if I can get anything for the mental health side of things.