Not Coping

Thank you @creative_writer

I hope I don’t but I probably will if I do I’ll just cry and stuff. I’ll be having a chat with my counselor through the GS tomorrow as well. If I feel worse later in the day I can always contact kids helpline. Though this may sounds weird but sometimes I like to spiral I can find it comforting I don’t know why or how I do but I guess I just must like being a bitch to myself lol. I’m my own worst enemy I suppose being bullied for 10+ years makes you like that.

Sorry I need to stop rambling myself. Your not having a good night either I don’t want to upset anyone.

Thanks @Eve7 and @creative_writer I appreciate it.

@Birdofparadise8 @Former-Member Im on hold to SANE now. Im doing my best. I do find it amusing that they keep cutting in and suggesting to join the forums!

Bed is my safe place @amber22. I just feel useless that that is where I’m spending most of my time. What sort of life is that. I’ve been watching Australian idol. Pix is doing awesome I’ve changed her food and she is much happier and full of beans. She is my protective factor

My bed is also my safe space, I think I spend majority of my day there @Captain24 so that is completely fine to do that. You can spend your life however you want to, and if that is in the comfort of your bed then that is so fine! What sheets do you have on at the moment? I just got a new set of grey ones - hoping I can keep it cleaner than the white ones (and by me I mean my dog with her dirty paws!)

@Birdofparadise8, no it’s all good. If things had been too intense at my end, I would’ve stepped away long ago. I’ve been learning when it’s best for me to step away, and when I can stay. But I totally get you on bullying, we internalise how people treat us while we grow up, it really affects our self-talk. I hope the counsellor appointment goes well for you. KH is a good one to keep at your finger tips if needed, they helped me so much when I was your age. Remember you are NOT your thoughts. I think you are a valuable member on here and I think you deserve every ounce of happiness. Our common experiences have allowed us to connect and bond on here 🙂 . You have helped me feel less isolated and alone. I think it’s about building self worth for you which is possible, but happens gradually.

Totally get that, I used to not be much of a day napper but I am now @Birdofparadise8 Not sure if that's a good thing or not! Oh I saw the rise of gru a few weeks ago, how good is it! Sooo funny. I haven't seen young sheldon, but I've been watching modern family recently which is such a laugh

The right name will come at the right time! Maybe when you start to learn more about what he likes his name will come naturally @creative_writer ❤️

That is good to hear if there not helping is there a crisis mental health line where you live you could be triaged to see what support they can offer you @Captain24 I am just pleased your getting help I’m proud your reaching out to someone good on you. Let me know if you want to still chat I’m here for you okay.

I have green sheets and a green striped quilt cover @amber22. It matches the feature tiles in both bathrooms and laundry. Plus the splash back in the kitchen and the roof of my house. Oh by the way green is my favourite colour! Lol

I do have 2 shades of grey and another shade of green in the linen closet. My quilt covers either have green or grey. The grey match’s my wall colour and furniture. Can you tell its a brand new house and I picked the design and I’m proud of it! Lol

Okay great thank you @creative_writer

I’ve really appreciate the friendship we have formed on here I don’t know what I would do with you and the other members and peer support workers I’d probably be in a psych ward or something.

I think it’s also because I was so young and I took everything to heart at the age of 5-15 once I was in year 9 I think I just had enough and got used to it.

So you’re okay then tonight @creative_writer?

Also my aunt gave me a book and a self help one with information on self compassion and self worth so I’ll have a look at that and it might help me not internalise everything.

Yeah so funny I had to try and stop laughing cause it hurts lol. That is also a good show I watched it too @amber22. You doing much tomorrow?