Not Coping

Thank you @ArraDreaming

Okay. I do like the demotivate term. That is true. I wouldn't want to get a cold. @Jynx

I just worry that if I spiral, it could develop into SI.

That sounds nice @Shaz51

@Shaz51 ShazyBee you did unpaid paper work today? That’s what I should’ve been doing, but then the day went sideways.

What started off as a quick trip to my daughters place, ended with a car load of stuff that I had to deal with because I can’t cope with a disorganised area.

Stick a fork in me.

It’s only 5:15pm in the West. If I go to sleep now I’ll be awake by 2am.

@Birdofparadise8 perhaps a balance can be found between being prepared for the possibility your spiral may end up there, without spending so much time worrying about it that it ends up going that way anyway...? As in like... don't ignore warning signs, but also don't tell yourself that it is an inevitable outcome.

Mmm, I guess. I'm not sure how I would do that. I always seem to worry about spiralling and SI. @Jynx

Take care my @Glisten 😊

It is 8pm here and nearly ready for bed

S3 is having big trouble at the moment @Jynx

@Birdofparadise8 it's a scary place to be, and so your anxiety about it is just trying to protect you from it. You had a chance to talk to any of your supports about how you're feeling yet?

Aww no @Shaz51 what's going on?

I spoke to KHL, but she thinks I'm doing well.

I see my psych tomorrow, so I'll let him know.

He is already concerned with having a lengthy time off between semesters.

I don't know why I would even be spirling @Jynx

Everything has seemed to deteriorate since Sunday and I'm not sure why.

There is soo much going on at the moment with S3 @Jynx

And Mr shaz ( dad) is trying to be supportive

Yesterday we became S3 emergency backup , wishing we lived closer

Between S3 relationships, work, adhd

I'm glad you've got the chance to chat to your psych about it @Birdofparadise8. Can definitely understand the confusion and anxiety about spiralling, I guess just try to remember it isn't ever inevitable, even if it feels that way 💜

@Shaz51 oof, yeah lots going on! ADHD seems to be one big juggling act hey. I'm glad he's got you and Mr Shaz looking out for him 😊

That is true, but it does feel like I am heading down that path. I feel like I've gone from a 3 or 4 to 6 or 7 out of ten. It always seems to happen so fast.

I am usually pretty good with motivation, even when depressed, so it's a sign things are worse.

@Jynx