Not Coping

@Birdofparadise8 what happened at the pool?

Well, it was after, and I saw the post she wouldn't be around, and it made me sad. It was if I was being rejected.

I perceived it that way when, realistically, I knew she wasn't. She was going after a long day and needed rest.

But it didn't stop me from spiralling into many emotions. @ENKELI

@Birdofparadise8 do you want to talk about it?

Why is it that you were upset when pinkflamingo had to go, but you don't feel that way about others on the forum do you think? (Only answer if you want to talk about it x)

I feel about it with a lot of people here, yourself included.

I felt disappointed, hurt, rejected, sad, etc.

Like I said before, I know people are busy, but we were having a good conversation, and I like I do with you and many others. I get sad because I wish things could continue. So then that leads to the rejection, etc.

I'm not sure why I felt this way. I logically know everyone I speak to on here can't be here 24/7, nor should they or I.

I also guess I was feeling vulnerable as I was asking if Pinkflamingo would be around, and then when she said she wouldn't, that's when the feeling kicked in.

I was so scared to share this earlier as people have become annoyed at me for this. I know people are busy but I can't change how I feel. @ENKELI

@Birdofparadise8 thank you for sharing that, it gives me more insight to you.

That is one thing you're going to have to work on because I hate the thought of you feeling so bad each time you log off from the forum. Might it be because you don't have RO at the moment?

You have to try and re-wire your thoughts, so instead of thinking you're being rejected, think of it as an opportunity to think of more stuff to talk about next time. Does that make sense?

It's not all the time it's just more when I'm vulnerable.

Yes that c, that could be a contributing factor Beciase if no one was around I'd jump onto there and chat away.

But I already had things to talk about @

It's not that we couldn't talk Pinkflamingo wanted rest.

@ENKELI

By the way I'm falling asleep so if I don't reply to your next post on 10 minutes time in asleep.my eyes are trying to close as I'm typing.

I hope you have a good night.

Sorry for the abrupt stop.

@Birdofparadise8 not a problem sweetie, sleep well x

Thanks @ENKELI

I hope you have a good rest of your evening.

What are you doing today?

Hey @Former-Member @creative_writer @ArraDreaming @ENKELI @PizzaMondo @lavenderhaze @creative_writer @Shaz51 @Zoe7 @Eve7 @Bow @Snowie @Blackbird11

How is everyone today?

I hope you’re all having a good Monday.

Hi @Birdofparadise8

How are you?

I'm catching up with a friend to see a movie at present. I have a phone appointment at 1:30 too. I'm doing ok, have been very itchy with no indicators, going to see GP tomorrow.