Not Coping

I do feel a bit better about it @amber22. The boss that called me isn’t fully involved so that’s why I am still a little concerned. He did try a reassure me though.

I’m bipolar. Waking up super early isn’t a good sign. I’ve had endless amounts of energy today. Talking flat out. My heart rate has been high. The only reason I have stopped now is that my back pain is really intense. So I think I’m heading for a hypo. Or it could just be a release.

If I get to bed tonight and can’t sleep I do have prn to stop it going further. But I kind of want to enjoy it after how I’ve been feeling lately. Elevated moods are way more fun! 🤩

Sorry didn’t see your other post @amber22

Not sure they just need to get her stable first and then we will see it is touch and go at the moment and I’m not sure when we can visit but I’m sure I’ll be informed when I can.

That sounds like a good idea, what cuisine are you going to go for? @Birdofparadise8

That is good that the boss that called you tried to reassure you, that is a really good sign, I find that they are often very brutal when it comes to things like this so it's great that they are being reassuring @Captain24

Ah okay I see, I hope that you're back pain feels better soon. Maybe try a hot water bottle or a hot shower to ease the muscles if it's that kind of pain? It might be a good idea to do a bit of a wind down routine to make sure we both fall asleep easily tonight, is there anything specific that helps you with that?

I hope that it's soon and that you can be reunited soon! I'm sure they will let you know the minute you can visit, I think that seeing her might bring you a bit of closure with it all and ease your worries hopefully @Birdofparadise8

Hello @ArraDreaming How are you tonight??

My nurse is fantastic!! @amber22. She helps me so much. I do feel like a burden though.

She gave me a whole sleep routine previously. I have to set the air con to 18 degrees. The have a hot shower and have a hot chocolate. Write in my journal and then put some form of white noise on. I usually use the thunderstorm setting.

Do you have a wind down routine?

That is so great to hear, don't feel like a burden at all, amazing people like that choose their career path to help people when they are mentally struggling in moments and so it is their choice! They are people with hearts of gold, no need to feel burdening at all! It makes me happy to hear that you get along with her so well @Captain24

Oh that sounds absolutely amazing. I love a good thunderstorm to fall asleep to, almost love it so much that I wish it would rain more here!! I do have to have a fan going all night (no matter the weather or the season) because I can only fall asleep to the white noise. If there isn't a fan on I really struggle to get myself to sleep and I often find myself waking up a lot during the night too. My perfect night time wind down would be a nice hot bath, a hot tea or a hot chocolate and then watching modern family with my fan on. That really relaxes me 🙂

@Captain24, I can't remember if I've asked you before, but are you on instagram?

there is an amazing lived experience account a follow. This person has bipolar and has some amazing affirmations and accomodations they use for themselves during a manic episode.

Their account is here https://www.instagram.com/livedexperienceeducator/?hl=en

If you don't have instagram, I can upload some of the images for you ❤️ just let me know

Just a pub meal I’m having a chicken burger @amber22

What are you doing for dinner?