My psych said he would speak to some colleagues to see what else he could do to help me. He had another look over a cognitive assignment I had a couple of years ago and how it never mentioned I would have a block with my emotions.
I'll try to explain it as best I can.
So we would talk about how I feel and bring it back to something and say it's about how I treat myself, and I know it's not nice, but then how does it make you feel in the moment, which I don't know. So he said maybe it's not the best approach as it's like I blocked from it. He said people would say they are angry or sad because it is where I can't name anything. I don't feel anything. I want to Google about it, but I'm not sure what all this would even be called.
We also talked about my uncle and aunt and how I try to make an effort in their lives, but they don't do the same by asking me similar questions.
We talked about last night and how hard it was. I was crying on and off from about 4 to 11 pm.
He couldn't belive that my meds weren't at the right dose so no wonder why things have been so much harder.
I think it's more than I can't express how I feel when I'm with my psych as there is nothing there when we talk about my painful experience.
Yeah, that's true
Yes, well, it's like Tuesday was awful, and I could tell him all about that and a few things that triggered me, but if we were to talk about how it made me feel telling him that I would feel nothing and for months he has been doing that to me and challenging me, but I just don't think there is anything there. I hope I'm not broken.
He said he was going to talk with some colleagues to see what else we could do. I hope he won't want to pass me onto someone else I still find it hard talking to him.
I won't cope with that. Yesterday, when we were talking about how often to have a session, I thought he was going to say something bad and want to have less, but then he said he thinks weekly, and I was all for that.
OMG, SANE just emailed me and said they go on postcode. I was told I didn't need to worry about that. The two people who I spoke to said it was okay since I was from Hobart. Now I'm crying. Why can't things be simple?
Here is what I've posted on Wednesday and Thursday @Blackbird11
It's okay. I just take a tablet in the morning. It's only been two days. I will have a blood test next week, so that's good. I don't see the Pdoc until March.
I don't know. I hope so. I don't want to start again.
