Not Coping

It's all the stress and because I eaten

I don't really eat

I am so stress and I just don't feel like I belong

Oh don’t you like to eat @bartart23?

I’m sorry your stressed has something caused you to feel that way?
You belong here. I’m here with you. We can belong together if you would like.

my dad just said “Laura you want us to respect your boundaries” in a weird why. Like why was that necessary ahh already shit on the first night. I don’t know how I’ll cope nearly three weeks, but anyway.

The visit was ok thanks @Blackbird11 I’m just trying to visit her more regularly as she’s 94 and I know she won’t be here forever.

Mum is quite deaf so conversation isn’t easy but it’s worse on the phone. She tells me I mumble and I tell her to put her hearing aids in her ears.

Mum was living with my sister but has just gone into care so everything is different for her.

My flight was delayed by over an hour. Nearly home now.

Good night @Birdofparadise8 @bartart23 @outlander @tyme

Oh @Birdofparadise8 I'm sorry about your dad 😕

And no I don't really eat

I am stress because it's like a never ending battle with everything I am trying but it's all falling apart

Last night I had the police here because someone told I was unsafe which I wasn't I tat the biggest mental breakdown

The police were lovely I talked to told them everything

I said I need to go to the psych ward I just no

I wanna do this on my own because I have talked to everyone I been on meds nobody seems to cares that's why I don't talk or open up.

Same here first half an hour and then another half an hour on the runway. They only had one runway for arrivals and departures.
I hope you get home safely @Eve7

Yeah thank you @bartart23

my parents are both very open and free with there bodies. So we have a small bathroom upstairs right in the living room and my dad will use it while the door is open when I’m around I’ve told him many times to respect my boundaries and have the door shut. Anyway so last night I told mum to tell him. Then he made a comment about it tonight.
Ah okay is there a reason why you don’t eat? Like an ED or something? You don’t have to say if you’re not comfortable.
Oh gosh really? Was that from here or did someone else call them?

I'm sorry that happened.
Sorry I'm a little confused ‘I said I need to go to the psych ward I just no’

You do or you don't want to go?
Do you have private health insurance?

It's okay thank you though @bartart23

Ah yeah fair enough.

I feel you with the depression. Mine has improved a lot the past month or so since starting a new mood stabilizer it really helped. I’m not suicidal any more.