Not Coping

What time are you around too? I haven't written my email yet, and I'm applying for some jobs @tyme.

Hi @Shaz51

How are you?

Yeah, I'm not too bad so far @creative_writer. I've just applied for two jobs. One is at a new hotel opening up and one is at a GP practice.

I'm going to go to the gym shortly, and I still need to find some boxes to put my stuff into. BWS only had small wine ones. So after the gym, I'll go to Woolworths and see if they have any.

Yeah, they can, but I don't think it's as bad as this hill in Quarry Road. It's very steep.

Hey @Birdofparadise8 I just woke up and now playing Xbox as the hallucinations and everything is too much for me but I am switching back into the little kid I hate this

Plus I have nobody to chat to hope someone wanna chat at some point

Hey @bartart23

You slept in well. I’m at the gym right now trying to build some muscles lol. I have strong legs but weak arms.

sorry your hallucinating. Is there anything that can help with them?
I’m around for a chat if you like.

Aww @Birdofparadise8 I was awake all night I don't sleep very much gym sounds great 😃

Happy to chat if you like nothing better to do

Besides I am questioning myself

I really messed up last night

Ah I was asleep by 10 pm so that could be why I woke up at around 8 am I think today.
yeah I’m happy to talk. I’ll reply in between my sets. @bartart23
I’m doing the glute drive.
what happened last night if you want to share?

Oh @Birdofparadise8 the hallucinations voices got louder I may of trashed the house and went crazy

I am honestly sick of MH and everything

I might leave my partner soon like leave leave

Everything is just a fucken mess right now my head is all over the place it doesn't matter what I do nothing shut it up

I feel like it's never ending 😞 bpd episode and mental breakdown it about to happen I just wanna scream and cry 😢

(Safe)

Oh I’m sorry that is happening @bartart23

Don’t you like your partner?
Are you sure you can’t speak to a GP or local MH services. They may be able to help find something for the hallucinations.
Is it a specific disorder other than BPD do you have?

Mm @Birdofparadise8 I've tired MH services and GP they don't care all they say is take medication and call a helpline it just goes around and around nobody cares nobody wants to help me so yes I given up on everyone I given up on asking for help the last time I was in the hospital I got told just call lifeline or come to the hospital as if they want to help me to me it's all about money to them they don't even talk to me anymore I do everything on my own it's getting really hard and I am falling apart I haven't left my house in 2 months all my mental health issues and everything is the same I don't really understand it myself I only got told this year that I bpd and other things

I love my partner but I think I am gay

I want to be a boy I am just confused

Yeah I do understand that comm MH didn’t help me at all. Even when I attempted in September they didn’t care and neither did the hospital they just sent me home. So I went to my GP and got back into the private psych hospital which was a life saver seeing I’ve been put on a new medication that has helped so much.
I disagree with the GP part as I’ve been really lucky with my GP she goes above and beyond for me. Maybe you could look into finding a new one?
so you think your gay and also transgender? Is that what you’re saying. @bartart23