Not Coping

Hi @RiverSeal

He lives about five min away from me, but he is at his parent's place they own a vineyard. We do talk on Facebook, but he can be slow to reply. I also don't want to make it all about myself as well. I feel like I can sometimes. Even though he has never said I have, and he would tell me if I do. I still feel like I'm using him.

That is true. It seems to just happen. I supposed that's like depression as well. I didn't choose this like I didn't choose to be bullied for 13 years.

Yes, it will be good. I'm not sure when they start up again.

Yes, I have. I feel a little nervous about that. Maybe after this brunch, I'll have a look.

I'm also moving into a three-bedroom apartment at uni, so I won't be as alone. I'll get to meet two new ladies. I'm on my own right now. I move on the 6th of Jan so it's not far away.

Try and stop crying. I also need to put away the clothes that I washed earlier. I'm just so sad. I just hate that I'm sitting here crying, and I can't stop, and I don't know why. Like, why should I be crying? It's not like anything bad is happening right now. Why can't I be happy with my life? I have one friend in Vic, a few in Hobart, and family who are all supportive of me.

@Birdofparadise8 it sounds great that you are moving into a three-bedroom apartment with two other ladies at uni. Have you thought about how you will approach the change by having other people around you more?

Putting away clothes can be therapeutic and rewarding! Maybe listen to some of Taylor's album while you are doing it as I know you are keen on that. I've been listening to 1989 too and really enjoying it!

I didn't answer your question about how I coped for so long but to cut a long story short I worked at jobs I didn't enjoy mostly and just did my best to get by. It all changed when I started studying at TAFE and created a pathway into a new career and did some volunteering while I wasn't working. It was a very tough time and my main takeaway is to believe in yourself and follow your instincts while you work hard and consider what you want to achieve. The only constant in life is change!

Take care and enjoy your evening!

RiverSeal

Mmm, that is a good point. I'm unsure how that will go. I suppose I'll have to get to know them first and work out how we will all live together, being that I've never met them and I don't know who I'll be moving in with.

I will still have my own room, as I do know, so that's good.

Yes, they're not quite dry yet, so I needed to put them in the dryer for a bit longer. I'll put them away tomorrow. I don't really want to do that now or really anything.

Taylor swift sounds nice. Yes, I like 1989. What's your favourite song of hers @RiverSeal.

Ah okay. Yes, that is true, only having change.

Hey @Blackbird11

What are you doing tomorrow?

I like Style (Taylor's Version) the best atm @Birdofparadise8

oh yes that's a good one @RiverSeal

So is welcome to new york.

Hey @Birdofparadise8 🤗🤗🤗🤗

We sat by the water in my car and enjoyed our fish n chips.

I am catching up with a friend in the am, going to a Christmas market then out to a movie (when harry met sally) that evening.

What are your plans now and tomorrow?

Hi @Blackbird11

That sounds nice.

Oh, cool, I love going to markets. They are fun.

I just searched for the movie, and it's very old. Do you like old movies?

I'm watching Virgin River and finally semi-stopped crying. I think I'm getting so tired as well. My stomach is a bit upset. I've started an iron tablet, and it's making my digestion all weird.

Tomorrow, the family will catch up for a cousin's birthday. I also need to return a jumper and two dresses I bought to get back $200. I need to get money somehow.

Do you have any idea how I can find a peer worker who is MH-related? I google, and all it comes up with are jobs.

Hey @Birdofparadise8

Sounds like you've had a tough evening. I hope you feel better soon.

Yes, I do like old movies... it will be fun.

I search google and come across this site... https://www.health.vic.gov.au/mental-health-services/mental-health-community-support-services

That should get you in the right direction.

Mmm, not the best. I'm so up and down at the moment.

I'll have a look. Thank you.

I'm going to go to bed, but it was nice to check in with each other.

I'd love to hear how the market and movie go tomorrow @Blackbird11