Not Coping

Who's around?

Does anyone want to talk?

Anyone around?

I'm not feeling great my parents have gone out and I'm packing to go back to Melbourne tomorrow. I’m worried as to how I'll go back on my own. My parents left half an hour and I already feel like crying. I’m trying to finish painting a wall.

Hi @tyme

I finished the painting, and now I'm packing. My flight is at 9 am tomorrow.

How has your day been?

9am - that's pretty good. By the time you return, you probably need to shop, cook, and get things organised.

It'll be different when you return. Between the transition from the hospital and now from Hobart, it's a big move from being around people ALL THE TIME to being alone most times. I hope you find things to keep you busy when you return @Birdofparadise8 Plan early so there's no time to go 'down'.

Have a good flight!

I have beef ragu in the freezer I made just before I left. I will need to get some things such as milk, etc.

Yeah, it took me a while to get used to not being in the hospital. Overall, though, I think things have been improving. The new meds have helped a lot. I haven't had any suicidal thoughts since discharge, which is so good.

Thank you. I hope the plan doesn't get delayed like it did coming down.

What are you doing tomorrow @tyme?

My head is so full right now that I haven't had time to think about tomorrow yet.

I hope you have safe flight with no delays!

I'm off now. Catchya another time. @Birdofparadise8

Good night.

This is so annoying because I went back to Hobart. I had to reschedule with my uncle, and we organised the 25th. I texted him today, and he told me we could go for a walk for 30 minutes. When I last spoke about it, we would go out for breakfast or lunch. I'm unsure what changed, but I was disappointed when he said he would only be free for half an hour. When we did talk about it, he said he needed to work some things out with his golf and if he would be going in the morning or afternoon. I don't see why our plans had to change. We will hopefully do something next week, maybe dinner, but I'm not holding onto much hope for that.

Is it okay to feel disappointed about this?

Now it's made me a bit sad.

Oh by the way, I'm back in Melbourne that's why I am wanting to see my uncle.

So, no one is around then.

I just love crying while feeling utterly alone.