Going through your old personal stuff

I have spoken about this a little bit on here in the past but it’s pretty big on my mind andhas been for months.

Part of me doesn’t want to keep rehashing it but the other part of me finds the digging so intriguing. It’s like a train wreck you want to look away but you can’t help but looking. And that’s how at the moment doing a bit of a deep dive on my childhood.

I have lots of documents about me as a kid and I want to read them but it so hard to read others peoples descriptions and perceptions of me and reports on me as a child. I know they aren’t peoples personal veiws on me but it’s so hard to read.

I don’t get it, if professionals thought all these things about me where was the help and when it did arrive why wasn’t it around for longer?

it’s intreging but also brings up so many memories and I wish I could correct some of the paperwork and explain why I was the way I was, nobody had a clear picture of it. But on the flip side there is also a lot of things that now make sense as an adult that didn’t make sense to me as a kid or I didn’t pay attention to.

It makes me so sad. But I also look back at it and I think how far I have come and how nobody not even me probably thought I would be living the life I am now.

Has anyone else gone through this process of looking back on their old things?