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I have been struggling a lot lately with suicidal thoughts. It’s become a daily occurrence and it’s been really overwhelming to cope. I am safe right but having to fight this is very exhausting. I feel so trapped, I am tired of living in pain, fear and shame. I feel like a burden to people and unimportant.
@Former-Member it was a tough day, was really moody. I’m trying to work out what going on for me right now. I was on the edge of hypo mania but my evening glasses have made me calm. I don’t feel depressed right now. I won’t get depressed again anytime soon, right? Will I stay calm and okay?
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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I'm feeling a little depressed again. I think I was going to go into a mixed episode again. At least I'm not agitated and energised simultaneously with depression. This is so confusing. Need to talk to my psychiatrist about this.
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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On the other note, I am still a bit agitated. Not as bad as it could be.
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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This is still killing me. I am sorry I keep posting. I am trying to understand my confusing brain.
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Unknown userMember
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Unfortunately @creative_writer this may not be something I can answer for you 😔. I bet it’s draining to go go through the different stages. Cliche, but take each day as it comes. There are no easy answers, no easy fixes or even strategies to manage. I can suggest that you take the calm when it’s there and know that the manic and depression may come and go, but you can experience some calm along the way too. Like riding a wave. I am here with you tonight xx
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Unknown userMember
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Never be sorry @creative_writer!! This is how you feel, you can embrace that and share it here. I bet it’s confusing!! Sending virtual hugs 🫂
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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@Former-Member I don't think hypomania and depression are always so distinct. Sometimes it can be confusing in the moment to know what I am feeling if it's happening simultaneously. It's like am I hypomanic, am I calm or depressed or both depressed and hypomanic? I've either been in agitated depression (energised depression) or just depression states lately. I think I am agitated and depressed right now. I don't know what to do, my brain is infuriating me.
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Unknown userMember
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What do you normally do when feeling like this?? It sounds very complicated for you 😳@creative_writer
I am still getting to know everyone and I’d love to know how you manage or not manage during these times.
xx
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Unknown userMember
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Hey @Captain24!!
How has your day been?
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Captain24Senior Contributor
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You just helped me make sense of where I’m sitting @creative_writer Im angry agitated and depressed all at once. Thank you
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