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creative_writerSenior Contributor
I have been struggling a lot lately with suicidal thoughts. It’s become a daily occurrence and it’s been really overwhelming to cope. I am safe right but having to fight this is very exhausting. I feel so trapped, I am tired of living in pain, fear and shame. I feel like a burden to people and unimportant.
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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hanamiSenior Contributor
Hi @creative_writer
Just checking how you are today. Are you safe? @tyme I don't think is in today she will reply, I'm sure, as soon as she is next in!
Take care
Hanami
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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hanamiSenior Contributor
@creative_writer I think that sounds like a good plan. Totally understand how hard it is to disclose things. Not saying I understand your particular situation just my own stuff. It's super hard to disclose to others but if you have a peer worker you can trust, that's amazing. Take it baby step by baby step.
Hanami
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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@creative_writer well I've been in hospital now 10 days and had a variety of tests and treatments.
Outcome: I'm going to have to deal with my body the way it is.Surgical intervention is not an option as to the large amount needed. They say it will leave me worse to have it all fixed.
So a new pain specialist is going to have a look tomorrow or Thursday to see if anything can be done to make life mire bearable.
I'd write a list of what needs fixing but we would run out of space
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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heya @Former-Member, I'm so sorry to hear about this. It sounds like you've tried a whole heap of things and that shows a lot of determination.
I also live with chronic pain, although it sounds like I've not had to deal with it for as long. But my pain meant a lot of isolation, discomfort and real hopelessness for me. I recently came across a Pain Management workbook by Dr. Rachel Zoffness which has totally changed my life. I was skeptical until I listened to this podcast episode she did (linked here). I obviously can't say for certain that it will change things, but it was a real last resort for me.
and @creative_writer, sending lots of hugs and love ❤️ After my own SA, I felt the same as you but for different reasons. it took me a long time to change these thoughts. But I really hope they can change a little for you.
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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@creative_writer, from what I've seen from getting to know you and this post here, I get the sense that you've felt the need to keep a lot of your feelings and struggles to yourself. That must be so exhausting.
It also sounds like you've been considering hospital, is that right? But your parents are saying you cant trust MH professionals.
Whether or not you are, is there a way that you can decide what happens with your MH supports?
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