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Struggling: TW suicide

Struggling: TW suicide

I have been struggling a lot lately with suicidal thoughts. It’s become a daily occurrence and it’s been really overwhelming to cope. I am safe right but having to fight this is very exhausting. I feel so trapped, I am tired of living in pain, fear and shame. I feel like a burden to people and unimportant.

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@Captain24I don’t think it was your fault, awful things do happen.It’s just life. We tend to be harsh on ourselves.

@Former-Memberit’s all good. It’s not too much details. I just don’t like talking about what actually happened. But I know it’s part of the healing process, but it’s hard when you don’t trust people easily.

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@creative_writer @Captain24 I don’t have any experience personally or even anyone I know who has dealt with this kind of trauma. I have done some units around this area at uni but that doesn’t count for any of the realities that face those who have experienced it. So essentially, I know nothing. Please let me know if I make a mistake or taboos when talking to you guys! I am just on here to learn from you and support you however I can.

I am however off to get ready for bed though. Goodnight and chat soon xx

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@Former-Member I look forward to having conversations with you in the future 🙂xx.

I’m feeling really numb and lost. I just hope I can get through today in one piece and safely. I feel like I’ve done some processing today.

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Is it weird to feel more depressed after socialising to the point you just don’t want to be here. Maybe I’m not getting the connection that I want with other people. It’s hard to feel comfortable and emotionally safe around people. Even if I am discussing light hearted matters I prefer to do it with people I feel more comfortable with. I’m safe for now and will sleep to get through SI tonight. Don’t know how to get through tom though.

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Re: Struggling: TW suicide

I really hate myself today, I've done no uni, I've done nothing but ruin myself by engaging in my own negative thoughts. I don't know how I will ever get out of this spiral. Maybe I'm not worth it. I'm sorry for being useless. I've been in treatment for so long, I've been seeing my psychologically specifically for trauma for 2 years. I've had extra support recently (which I won't have next month) but my heart keeps aching. What more do I need? I have everything but doesn't feel that way.

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Know the feeling @creative_writer

sometimes I think I’m just too broken.

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@Bow I wish I didn’t feel so broken and damaged beyond repair. It’s like I’ve tried but I’m still here. This intense SI feels too much. I can keep myself safe for this precise moment, but how long can I go on for?

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Wish I had something helpful to say @creative_writer I really do, but I’m where your at too, surviving the moments until bed time.

can you find something to do to keep you distracted until bed time?

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I know exactly how you feel..,
I am in the same space right now..
It really sucks

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Sorry to hear that you are all feeling like you are in a difficult space @N1812345 @creative_writer @Bow - it certainly is not pleasant.

As much as I want to take it away, I also believe there are things to learn from it. For me, feeling that way taught me that I could not rely on the world or others to make me feel better; it taught me to accept the things I couldn't not change; it also taught me that I can't change the weather, but I can change the clothes I wear to better suit the weather....

Sitting with all of you.

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