Struggling: TW suicide

@creative_writer I really feel you on not really knowing what you want, or what will help. Can be so crappy to feel lost.

I will say that your mental state will 100% impact your physical self as well. Mind and body just can't be separated. Sometimes this can be a bonus though, cos doing stuff like exercising or other physical things can improve your mental state.

I'm the last person who will tell someone to 'just take a walk!' if they're feeling crappy. For me though, I like to dance - cos it combines music and physical movement and allows me to destress that way. Also? Talking is a physical thing. So if you feel like you wanna talk, maybe it'd help? If you're up for it, I'll include a list of various non-crisis helplines you could check out:

• Blue Knot Foundation - 1300 657 380 (Complex Trauma support)
• 1800RESPECT - 1800 737 732 (Family Violence support)
• Friendline - 1800 424 287 (Chats and connection)
• Mensline - 1300 789 978 (for men only)
• 13 YARN - 13 92 76 (for Indigenous & Torres Strait Islanders)
• Q-Life – 1800 184 527 (for LGBTQAI+)
• ARCVIC – 1300 269 438 (OCD & Anxiety Helpline)

(Please note – some may not operate 24/7. You can check the included links to websites for more info)

IDK if this is helpful for you at this time, but let me know if you want to chat here and I will happily sit with you 💜

@creative_writer words are not always enough - that is very real. Words can only ever represent something, they aren't actual experience.

I can hear that you're really struggling with those thoughts at the moment. Honestly, unless you know that type of music will worsen your current state, maybe it's okay? In my experience, listening to music that matches my mood often helps me to be more accepting of how I'm feeling. Also, some of the happiest people I know listen to the absolute darkest music...

If you're feeling like you're hyperventilating, you could always pop on a guided breathing on youtube or something?

I like this gif for breathing: https://i.giphy.com/media/krP2NRkLqnKEg/giphy.webp

But that might also hurt your eyes.

Here with you still, and sending a pile of hugs while I'm at it 💜

@Jynxsometimes words don’t exist for the pain we feel. It’s been very hectic lately, I thought things were easing up but became consumed by this heavy burden Tuesday night.


I think with music it’s complicated. Depressing music can make you feel better or worse depending on the quantity.

I think breathing does help when I’m really anxious. I wish I could prevent my triggers but it’s so hard. I feel so utterly lost.

❤️

@creative_writer I am sorry to hear that this darkness has hit you, and held on for a number of days now. That's super rough. And yeah, you make a very good point about the music thing... follow your instincts on that one I reckon.

I think in my experience, we might not ever be able to completely stop ourselves from being triggered. But we can learn to manage them, and practice how we respond to them, until they no longer have such a grip on us. Things that might once have left me weeping for days no longer do so... they still hurt, and it's not always easy. But it becomes less... world ending over time, if that makes sense.

I am alone in my mind. I guess it was my destiny to suffer alone. We all come in this world alone and leave alone.

Come to think of all the people I’ve failed.