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Struggling: TW suicide

Struggling: TW suicide

I have been struggling a lot lately with suicidal thoughts. It’s become a daily occurrence and it’s been really overwhelming to cope. I am safe right but having to fight this is very exhausting. I feel so trapped, I am tired of living in pain, fear and shame. I feel like a burden to people and unimportant.

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This really resonates with me @creative_writer. I love so much of what I study, but there are massive areas that are super difficult to process. I just did a subject on DV and writing the assignments was super difficult and triggering. I had to be so gentle on myself and apply for lots of extensions.

But it's awesome to hear that youth mental health is what brought you to it. It's pretty similar to me. I grew up regionally with very little mental health supports (and a "pull yourself up by the bootstraps" kind fo family). So I think I want to work in mental health regionally, but more in the queer/LGBTQIA+ space. But I feel as a regional MH worker, you kinda have to be prepared for anything!

What kind of volunteering did you do? It sounds like it was pretty fulfilling?

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@Captain24 I have lots of books so I always have that option available. I feel like I am naturally drawn to emotional books, but should be able to find lighthearted stuff.

@Former-Member it can be hard sometimes but it is a very rewarding career pathway. I think many people who go into mental health have their own experience with mental illness and trauma. It's often about having effective self-care. I've volunteered as a youth mentor and Lifeline crisis text supporter. I am technically still with Lifeline, but I have been doing shifts less frequently and making sure that I am in the right mental space being starting one.

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Hoping you can find something lighthearted to read. @creative_writer and that your evening can be calm and relaxed

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@Captain24 I found a book but I can't seem to focus because the urges feel so uncomfortable.

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I get that @creative_writer I have the same problem. Is there anything else you like to do such as drawing or painting. What about puzzles in magazines?

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@Captain24 my brain feels a bit stuck. My body has been feeling off all day, and has been since last night. It feels uncomfortable and scary. It feels unbearable. Things had been better for a bit, and I thought it was all settling down till last night. I don't even know what happened last night. I don't feel safe even though I am, and I find myself drawn to really depressing and dark music. I mean it's 2022, why am I still feeling trauma sensation from years ago? Right now I am waiting on Lifeline chat, and I'm not sure if I'll get through anytime soon. I could call but everyone is my family is around and I don't want to be asked who I am calling.

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Hope you can get through soon @creative_writer . I really despise that safe but not safe feeling.

Im not sure if your trauma but have you seen anyone about it?

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@Captain24 yes it’s hard. I have professional support, though my psychologist is really the only one who knows the details.

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Does anyone ever feel frustrated after reaching out for help through a helpline? Reached out to SCBS and don't feel much better. My suicidal thoughts are still strong, though I am safe for now.

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Honestly feel so unlucky. Lifeline got cut off yesterday because of glitches. SCBS didn't work. I am on the phone with SANE and hope I get through soon because I am running out of patience.
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